Hi Peacock, Hope you enjoy your trip home. I am just going to send you a short PM so if yu are still on lone have a look in 5 mins. love Val X
Hi
Yes, 2 days in a row - thatās unusual for me atm! The weather is rubbish today so no early walk before work and managed to email YD yesterday so no need for a catch up there either!
I did enjoy the fast cars but didnāt manage to check the speedo as to how fast I went - I really should have but was concentrating so much on braking and turning at the cones that I barely looked down at the dashboard! Plus I wasnāt going to get a speeding ticket so why bother LOL.
Glad MD had a good birthday and you had fun with the candles! Weāve used them before and they are so difficult to eventually stop - a bucket of water does the trick. Weāve got EDās 21st to think of this year but her main celebration ie big party and present, was for her 18th so we wonāt have to organise anything big, thank goodness, as itās only 2 weeks before Christmas which is busy enough as it is. So far just concentrating on OHās birthday next week - why do they never have enough ideas? I certainly canāt think of anything. Heās also go HIS track day tomorrow, the girls and I bought it for a Christmas present last year and heās only just got round to booking it - hope itās dry. Iām sure Iām a better driver than him so at least we can compare ha ha. What was your nice pressie? Not the big TV I gather 
Lorraine - hope you are doing OK with any aches - a lot of it is down to medication Iām sure - especially when you remove oestrogen from us - how are we meant to cope? Having said that I hope Lilyās Dr hasnāt put her off AIās? I certainly feel no worse than when on Tamoxifen.
Peacock - hope you have a good trip to London, bring loads of bags with you so you can stock up on the ācheapā things in the UK.
Hi to everyone else, hope you are OK Lisa and the cough is being sorted.
Bye for now
Nicky x
Hi Girlies,
Nicky it is good to hear that you didnāt feel the aramotose inhibitors were any worse than tamoxifen I was a bit concerned after reading what Lilyās doctor had said. I have an appointment in Nov with the Onc when he will discuss medication etc. Wow the driving experience sounds good well done I am not very good with speed I thnk it is due to the fact my Hubby has always driven fast and so I do the opposite.
Val I understand perfectly what you mean about grandchildren. When I was diagnosed I actually said āwell that canāt be right I am not a grandmother yetā how stupid was that. But i too think I have a while to wait luckly loads of my friends have grandchildren so I can share their excitement.
Lily the house sounds great I am very envious although hubs has suggested decorating after christmas! thank goodness not before I donāt think I could cope with unheavel. Glad to hear MD had a good birthday and your little grandson sounds adorable.
Peacock hope you have a good time in London and that you are feeling well for the break.
Lorraine sorry to hear you are having negative feelings every now and then but I think we probably all do particularly when you hear of someone in trouble so I think it is perfectly normal just horrible.
Lisa hope you are feeling better and glad to hear you had such a great break away.
Well I must be off to do the ironing !! aghhhhh
New photo pre curly hair just so I can remember what I use to look like.
love to all Bev xx
Hi,
Bev love the new photo and hair :). Sorry if my comment gave you concern but us sheep just follow orders so I guess we will put up with whatever side effects we get and maybe we will get lucky this time 
I see more people on line moaning about tamoxifen to be honest. My onc likes femara, so that is where i am heading. I will be interested to know how you get on next month as I donāt see my onc until Jan. I will be over the magic 2 years then and my surgeon has put the menopausal status blood tests on my form so the onc has nowhere to hide from my questions this time ha ha. I seem to have been out a lot since finishing the lounge so I just laid on the sofa and watched tv tonight. Do you like 4 weddings? I am glued to it.
Nicky hi I am fed up of the rain too and we have been very lucky compared to up North. I reckon Lisa must be wearing wellies in bed it has been so rainy up there lol.My ED has a birthday in December too, she is now starting to not like birthdays. My pressie was a cherished plate for my car. It matches with his so we look like a company now ha ha. We still have the ant tv so it will be a shock when the big one arrives as it is going on the fireplace. Not sure I will like it but at least I will be able to see something! I canāt believe I used to watch this little one all the time. Eye sight has gone pants since then. Putting off going to the opticians in case they make me wear glasses full time 
Hi to everyone else and hope you had a nice day or did something nice. They are trying to get me to do extra things at work and I am looking the other way. I am just not interested in doing someone elseās work that they get paid for as they donāt offer to help me. Occasionally someone has a guilt trip and says I forgot to ask how you are. I am working on being self-sufficient emotionally. End of the day I am out the door, forget all the stress and thinking about home. Sometimes I wonder if we are our own worst enemies expecting people to remember or ask, then disappointed or anxious if they donāt. I suddenly find it has moved a little further into the corner of my head instead of being my waking thought and with me all the time. I hope this lasts
Lily x x
hi all, sorry for my absence nipped on dadās pc as my broadband still isnt working. Well, guess what, I have whooping cough - boo hoo (actually was happy). They think its that but cant say for defo but all sympotms lead to it and unforuntately work sent me home as its contagious - i didnt know! Well, im off until next Wednesday and if can get broadband sorted I can work from home. Worst part is girl I went on holiday with has now got it too ā¦ oh dear.
Anyhow, off home to see if I can get broadband working and I can catch up on all the posts xxxxx
Hi,
Lisa what can I say it is fab that it is not lung mets of course but whooping cough takes a while to get rid of so I am sorry you have that. Wonder if you have started an epidemic as everyone on the plane will have got the bugs! Still most people should have had the jab and will be immune to it so donāt worry. What are you like - you are ill and should not work at home. You should be taking it easy at home if you want to get over this quickly. Be sensible!
Big hugs poor you
Lily x
yipppeeeee, back on line so sitting here hacking cough and glass of wine for medicinal purposes of course, no holding me down at mo, spoke to doctors and fine to go to manchester at weekend with parent, bro and sis in law and best mate and family for rugby league final at old trafford, front row seats only downer is St Helens got through instead of Wigan.
Need to check my diary next week but think Im okay for York during that week, if anyone wants to share with me let me know, havent caught up but dont yet know hotel location etc. My aim would be to travel up one day meet up for goss and nosh etc and then shop on own for some xmas pressies day after before coming home but Lily blokes should be able to join in at night as long as we dont have to do museaums!!! I really hope everyone is okay, Im in a really strange place (but good) for me. Although Im petrified of coming to meet up as Im such a wimp Im thinking if I wasnt such a wimp I would have known Angie a lot better now and life too short, and wierd but i was shy on holiday but the girl I went with is really good at trying to make me look at my paranoid state, if we are laughing Im always the one concious that others arent happy with it and she made me realise that its there problem to deal with not mine, and in some wierd way, its gave me more confidence, i think sod it all Im not going to spend my time worrying about others or what I do, what will be will be and not wasting my time (get me eh!!!) Gonna have a nice chilled sick days in bed and hospital re recon on monday and back to work Wednesday.
So night all, and welcome to the wierdly more positive me.
Oh best shocker of all is Ive been approached about a blind date and considering it - maybe! Think Im just holding a torch for someone else cos its easy and knows my background but life to short to wait around.
Phew, hope everyone okay and you havent keeled over from shock of my post!!! maybe its just the antibiotics and black eyes getting to me!!!
Hi,
Lisa hope the cough eases up soon, sounds horrible. A blind date, oh my you have them swarming you now -go for it !!! It would be wonderful to meet up so let me know what days would be best for you if it works out ok. I am ok between Mon and Thurs but Friday not so good. Anyone else able to come? Going to a surprise 40 the party tomorrow so looking forward to that. Nipped in Debenhams and they had lots of John Rocha half price and couldnāt decide between 2 tops so bought both:) They are a bit hippy with a lot of detail and floaty to cover the bits that need it.
Have a lovely weekend
Lily x
well im bc, been to manchester to watch the rugby andboy felt much better than last year!!! off to Newcie tomorrow for consultation with nurse on options for recon, im such a babyscared stiff of thought of operation. Loving the shopping spree Lily, had a little one today. think im fine the whole of the week - are others joining us or what???
Hi,
good luck with the appointment for the recon. How is your cough? I guess it must be a lot better or they would not let you go there and chance spreading it. Keep us posted what you intend to do. Still not sure if anyone else will come along. Any takers?
I have a sore throat yuk, hate them. I tried gargling with some diabolical stuff this morning and have a giant box of strepsils at the ready so hoping to fight it off. Swine flu in school again so people get jumpy when you start sneezing.
oink
Lily x
Hi Ladies
Hope you are all well.
Lisa - youāve come back a changed woman - what on earth did you do in Spain LOL Good Luck and long may it continue. Hope all went well with the meeting for your recon and you are happy with what will be happening. That will be such a major step forward so it sounds like you are going in the right direction - no looking back! Sorry I wonāt be able to make that week, work and daughter commitments - I did think this would be the case but even so itās a shame I canāt join in even if it is the Lily and Lisa party political conference
Lily - hope the sore throat comes to nothing but I expect that working in a school you come across more lurgies than the rest of us. I know when ever my 2 Dās went back they always ended up with something in the first term. Glad the retail therapy worked for you! Iām tearing my hair out for OHās bāday, I have no real idea what to get him and all his ideas are way too expensive! I will get him a lens for his camera so he can continue in his next phase as a paparazzi (papparazzo?) but as to all the smaller things I like to get I will be trying today, my one day off.
Hope everyone else is doing well and enjoying the last of the sun - very cold 1st thing but how lovely to have a bright day. Talking of OH we have decided to go to Paris to see my YD this weekend for his bāday. Not as extravagant as it may seem due to good old Clubcard points/Airmiles. I didnāt use any last year so have a secret stash! We figured that if we went for a nice meal near home it wonāt be any more expensive in Paris (we hope) and it would be lovely to catch up with YD and probably help with a few bits that are still not sorted like the bl**dy landline/internet. Literally a flying visit but should be good as ED is coming too, she can stay with YD whilst OH and I shack up in a hotel!
Will try to get on here during the week but all the rest of it Iām at work for, so may be a bit short on time.
Have a good week everyone
Nicky xx
hi all, catch up later. Was hard work yesterday as I have more than one options but it looks like the major option going to be the best one for me as the other option could effect my arm, however it is around 10 hours plus in surgery with two consultants so a bit scary and the consultant who would do it poo poohed me getting it done and its huge op and complications attached, but diet starts today as for him to even consider me I need to loose at least 2 stone and get my blood pressure down, yikesss, not taking the decision lightly as for each option I would need to get an implant put in right side first to expand my skin to reduce scarring and give me a better look so she said its a long haul with operations spanning 12 months and you know what a wimp I am when it comes to hospitals!!! Yuk
Speak later xx
Hi,
sounds like some tricky decisions Lisa. Do you mean you will have the one where they cut right across your tummy and use the skin and (sorry) fat? The 10 hours will make no difference to you as it is a blink and you think you are straight back no matter how long or little time you are gone. Bad for the rellies waiting for you to come out though. How do you feel right now about chucking the falsie and being even again? I think you need to focus on the end result and how important it is or isnt to you. I would definitely have it if I was young and āon the pullā like you !!! I expect they knock you out with drugs until it feels better so sounds like a giant sleep and then getting yourself back to normal. Hey but what do I know! Keep us posted and if we can help, ask. 2 stone oh carumba!
Nicky jet setting again then! Have a fab time in Paris. My throat is not a lot worse but been running a temperature and paople were asking me all day āarenāt you cold?ā as in short sleeves. Got a headache tonight so will see how i go. I was being āobservedā today so had to go in as had prepared everything ready. It went well so they should leave me alone for a while I hope. I hope to go for threshold this year which takes me into another pay bracket. Will be interesting to see if the boss passes it or not after so much time off. Ear giving me the jib now so I hope at goes off over night. Ouch!
New telly arrived today and big enough to see through my foggy tamoxifen sight hooray.
take care all
Lily x
Hi,
Lorraine is everything ok I have been concerned about your silence in cyberland.
Hugs
Lily x
Hi all,
I havenāt been able to make contact recently as have been so busy with friends problems but it has been good to be able to help them out after all the help they gave me last year. One of them has gone away to visit relatives and I have been dog walking but the poor old boy had a problem with his eye which resulted in a visit to the vet which escalated into a few visits the poor old thing was so shocked when the vet took his temperature that he buried his head inbetween my legs as if to say āif I canāt see what is happening to me I can pretend it isnātā I think we can all empathise with that one! and a close friend of ours has had a heart attack whic thank god he survived. When will life become peaceful.
Lisa so sorry to hear you have whooping cough but greatly relieved it is nothing more sinister. The recon work sounds horrible but as Lily said you are young so it will be worth going for it. and well done on your new found confidence. Remember we are all scared of dying but not afraid to live so go for it!!!
Lily itās working with kids that does it when I worked at schools as a TA (that is not terrritorial army! although I think that training would have been useful) I was always catching colds. Hope you feel better soon. What are the exact dates for the York meet up? I do hope I can do it but depends on work commitments etc.
Nicky have a lovely weekend with your daughter I know what it is like when they are so far away. Our daughter has now lived in France for 4 years and we only get a chance to see her once or twice a year and I really miss her. She is coming home in Nov for a week so I am looking forward to that.
Be in touch soon.
love to you all.
Bev x
Well its been a bit quiet on here, just hope everyone is okay, I still havent caught up and first day back at work today as well as trying not to think of recon for the rest of this week before delving into it a it more, ouch.
Bev sounds like you have had a busy and bit rough time, glad thinks not too bad though.
Promise to catch up with all the goss as soon as I can and hope everyone doing okay xx
Hi,
I am getting really excited about meeting you guys - probably wonāt be able to shut up ha ha! Bev-Lisa and I are quite flexible (not bodies he he) so if there is a chance you can come, please feel free to say which days. It is any time between Monday 26 Oct and Thursday 29 Oct as I want to avoid the Friday if at all possible as already booked up for the day. I am staying 2 nights as other plans while up there. Lisa is meeting one day and doing Christmas shopping on her own the next day. So choose away. Anyone else able to make it that week? Julia you said possibly? Lorraine hows it going, can you make it? Anyone else we talk to? Lets make plans asap.
Felt better this morning so trotted off to school but talking and shouting has made it worse. Ear problem has gone hooray just a scratchy throat and little cough. Bev sorry to hear about your friendsā problems. Max hates the vet too and I am convinced they have slippery floors so you can drag them along protesting all the way into the surgery!! I think the vet who offered to do the nasty deed at our house last month would be shocked to see psycho dog trying to get the postman through the letterbox! Will be fab to have your daughter home for a bit though. Why donāt you do an early Christmas meal and celebration with her? Nicky guess you will be busy with work and planning for your lovely trip too. Not sure I could cope as well as you guys if one of my chicks flew that far from the nest Lis hows the cough? Hope you are improving every day.
Hugs buddies
Lily x
hiya Lily
Cough much better and back at work so will look at my diary tomorrow and train times, did you book a hotel for yourself as I will need to have a gander - hope someothers can make it!! xx
hi there everyone
im back in cyberland! been staying with my elderly mum, whilst sis was on holiday.
Ive actually really enjoyed the break, my other sis kept saying āarnt you missing home?ā missing home?
i was enjoying having what programmes i wanted on, catching up with my knitting, without hubby moaning about my constant clicking having a double bed to myself. and the list goes on.
my mum had me in stitches, the other night. i prepared her brekky that morning (she has cornflakes with banana) and even removed her dish before i went out for the day. and she said
" theyre was all white bits in my brekky today" i said āit must have been sugarā
āno she said, they were hard, theyre on my tableā
so off i go to investigate. and she had all these plastic caps about 50, on her table.(my sister is having new kitchen fitted and they were off the cupboards)
but i def didnt put them in her brekky.
then she said " you didnt give me my brekky,this morning "
so she must have got her self a second helping, and somehow put these things in!
i know i shouldnt have laughed but it was so funny, and she said āstop laughing your giving me a headache!ā dont think shell want me caring for her too often.
it got me thinking "do you think that may be why were all putting weight on. maybe were forgetting weve had brekky, and having another helping?
talking about weight, i feel so huge,been clothes shopping, now size 18, and i just hate being this big, but i dont seem to be able to get into the mood for dieting, i know its not healthy.
lisaf
hope you brave enough to go through recon, like lily says, its different in your position when you are looking for a relationship. im sure if you met the right person he wouldnt be bothered, but i think you would. you can always ask for a pre med, for any anxiety prior to op, it helped me. im like lily though will probably stay with one boob, cos im a coward, and i can live with the way things are.
lily
would like to meet up, but dont know if i can make it. it may be last minute decision, so could you, send me a mobile no, by private message, incase i do come along. were off to butlins next week, so may be a bit of a rush.
hope your colds improving.
nicky
great to hear your ok, im still having lots of niggly pains, due for a kidney scan end of this month. enjoy paris break. x
everyone else, take careā¦ x
Hi,
welcome back Lorraine and stop trying to poison your Mum!!! Your story did make me laugh.Yes time to yourself can be a real treat. How brilliant if you could come along and maybe we could accidentally give a nice bloke Lisaās room number wink. Keep reminding me to send my number as pea brain will forget! Thanks for asking, I jave a scratchy throat but not a bad cold. A day of trying to calm teenagers down and get them working has done it no good at all. It always hard for teachers to shake off throat problems as we shout too much By the way I had a lumpactomy so sorry if I misled you there. I am considering surgery though as I have ended up one cup size different. This has changed from rads and they say I am a good candidate for lipofil so seeing the expert in Dec for a chat and strip no doubt!! Oh another doc who hasnāt seen me topless, running out of people who havenāt these days!There are downers as it can form a lump which then has to be tested and of course gives you a panic. It can also cause calcifications which then need more ultrasounds and biopsies - so not without a price tag and not worrying comes high on my list of pluses for not having it done.
Lisa get back to me when you can. I thought Mon/Tues or Tues/Wed - how does that sound to you. Then you could arrive whichever day suits you. You canāt get in till quite late but if we are already staying you can arrive early for a day of food and chatting
By the way my cervical screening came back ok which was another phew as I hat going for them. I had got myself prepared for trouble as I had been told chemo can cause a problem. Anyone coming look at the hotel I mentioned. It is a bit pricey but is huge so if anyone decides last minute they should still get in. Also it has a lounge and bars for us to sit and meet up and lots of free parking which is tricky in York. Also near town for looking round and shopping and not far from the train station. Happy to look again if not suitable for any reason.
Lily x