Hi Bev
I too have had pain under sholder blade which I panickined what liver stuff but in reality I think its some of my lymphoedema pushing my arm excess up and bras being tight and to do with rads which can effect your back, I think that I always get more aches and pains on that side and thinking about it we have had surgeons in there, rads and now pills!!!
hope everyone ahs a lovely weekend, stuffed the diet tody, friend and work leaving and bought cakes, 1, rude to say no and 2 M&S cupcakes with donation to BCC so coudlnt say no, albeit took me an hour to eat it but was 8 weight watchers points and only get 22 a day and off for meal and drinks to say farewell tonight - I can see the 4 pound going back onā¦ argggh
back of hols now. thought id have a look and see how everyone is. sorry your all feeling achey, i have been pretty rough on holiday. i felt quiet ill at times. i have been having a lot of joint pain, and pain down my neck and spine, and have trouble moving about in bed, and so it effects my sleeping. also ive been having a lot of soreness and pain down by my ovaries. next week i think i will go docs if i feel the same.
but we still had a great time. the accomadation as improved a lot. we paid 300 for 4 of us, b+b+evening meal in silver accomadation for 5 days which wasnt too bad. the food was ok, but ive tasted better, but had plenty nice puds. entertainment was great. my teenage son took a friend, and all week he was plucking up courage to chat this girl up, and i had a bet with him, to talk to her and he just did it, two minutes before i won the bet. it was funny watching him. we had loads of laughter, and im so grateful for this time, were having together.
it came into my mind once, i wonder if anyone here is going through chemo, and as a wig on, cos i remember how i felt last year when i was on holiday.
anyway things to do, all of you take care and im sorry to complain, but its so hard to share the rotten side of this with others. i keep swearing i will be more positive, but it was easier before the pain became more intense. who knows maybe tommorow will be a good day. x
Hi ladies
Lisa ā thanks for your kind words. A double recon sounds serious stuff, when are you planning to have it? Youāve lost some weight already so you are on the right track. I havenāt been told to lose any weight for my recon, but I do want to try to lose some, I hate having so many tummy ripples (spare tyres to you and me).
Bev, sorry to hear you are feeling under the weather too, what is it about the clocks changing, dark nights and the pre-Christmas thing? I hope you will feel more energised soon and that your pain in the shoulder eases.
Lorraine it sounds like you had a fab holiday, and you are so right in that we have times to enjoy with our nearest and dearest. Sorry too that you are feeling grot ā maybe itās a cyber bug we all have?
To everyone else, have a good weekend, donāt forget the clocks ladies
xx
hiya all, wont stop long as had one too many tonight. Its so nice to feel like old self and normal - yeah aches and pains but i wanna enjoy myself from now on xxx
Hi,
well I was feeling really bouncy when I came on here - with it being half-term and a week of free time ahead of me. Sad about not seeing the original Lisa so I could be amazed by the final post diet one at a later date - I know you can do it:). I would have been a terrible influence on you though. You would have gone backwards by weeks. Bounce has gone a bit thinking about all you poor folk with aches and pains and worry is even worse. I hate to think of you guys going through it x. I was in the local rag this week with my local friends as we raised Ā£2150 at our fundraiser and little chap was in the other local paper which featured all the local schoolsā first day with pictures of the new intake. He was chuckling away about seeing himself and his friends in it. We have been playing lotto tonight and the little cheat made me have the board which has a missing picture so it is impossible to win lol. He had to take something made out of newspaper to school. By the time I got home Victor and MD (both serious design freaks) had sculted some amazing dog with a lead and he likes it so much he wonāt hand it over to his teacher now. They are so competitive and have to go OTT on these things. I remember the kids having to do a 3D map and him making them create waterfalls and earth layers and having to transport these enormous models to school. I really need a break after numerous events in my classes. I had a run in with a kid who is in line with BNP and then told me she isnāt racist aboutā¦ I had a kid steal someoneās compasses and then stick it in the boyās arm when he went to get it back. Some ādearā called me a bā¦ and my class nearly murdered him and he has not been back since. I had 3 child protection issues go off, an asthmatic go faint and unable to breathe, a boy coughing up blood in a panic and swine flu in the class. It is such a quiet school usually!
Well I really hope some of theses pains settle and that everyone is ok and no nasties.I think the weather at this time of year makes us worse possibly so turn the heating up if you can to keep warm. This must be the time of year when I appreciate the warmth coming from my hormone tablets. Quite a change after last winter when my temp was in my boots and I was going to bed in a bobble hat. Silver lamee ha ha
Take care and hugs
Lily x
ever thought of writing a book of school antics, it would make good reading for the grandchildren. i definately couldnt teach, im a bit of a softee, and that doesnt do with teenagers. hope listening to all our ailments doesnt take the bop out of your step too much, cos one good thing with this site, is we all are at differnent stages so when were having an ok time, it encourages those suffering, and when we feel crap were normally pulled out of it, by that.
well hope you really enjoy ur holiday, even if its just a few lie ins. blissā¦
any of you having kidney scans? i have 2 lined up soon.
Hi,
Lorraine thereās never a dull moment in secondary schools these days. I get bored really easily and like challenges so I guess thats why teaching does it for me - no day is ever the same. I would love to write a sit com or a book but will have to save that for my retirement years. I am a softy too but you find you have limits when someone pushes you to that point. Teenagers are good at that! I have not had kidney scans but YD did when younger - ultrasound and had to drink loads like when you are pregnant. What kind of scan are you having? I am on a little free spell with an appointment in Dec about lipofil and then my 12 weekly check, with the onc this time. I am wondering if he will change my tablets then, over to an AI. You take care and hope those aches improve x.
Well having a headache for 2 days is no way to start off my half term! It is on the tail end of a 2 week cold and I had a bit of ear trouble last week so think it is sinuses or middle ear. If I shut my eyes I feel like I am travelling backwards anticlockwise on a roundabout. I have no cough, cold or anything else just this slight headache.Very annoying as I very rarely have one these days since my treatment. Anyone doing anything exciting this week? Wish I was but I am sure the week will be good fun and no alarm clocks
Lily x
Hi ladies
Lorraine - are you having the scan in connection with any of the aches youāve been having? Iāve not had a kidney scan as such, just the CT which highlights the organs as well as showing up any changes to the bone. I did ask about a bone scan but the onc said this is most often used for diagnosis rather than checking up on treatment as any tiny bumps can show up as āactivityā. Didnāt know this, but Iām quite glad not to be injected with radioactive dye Just the long wait now but Iām trying not to think about it too much, however that will no doubt change nearer my followup appointment time.
Lily - what an awful week or so you must have had a school, no wonder you need a break. Hope you can do a few nice things during this week even if youāre not galavanting up to York with your new best friend! Headaches can sometimes come on after a stressful time, when you start to relax so maybe this is the cause. I hope itās not the after effects of the cold youāve had as that may mean I get it as well - how selfish of me LOL. On the cold/cough side of things I am definitely improving and not spluttering all over the place as I was earlier in the week. Iāll be making up some extra hours next week at work so may not get on here too much but I do feel as if Iāve had a weekās break this week and have got on with all sorts of things that I had meant to do for a while. YD comes back on Thursday so really looking forward to that. Also the great day arrived yesterday when she eventually got her internet up and running, France Telecom you exceeded yourselves, only 5 weeks from placing the order - grrrrrrr. I feel so much happier now she wonāt be as isolated, not just from us but from all her UK friends as well, plus just being able to check things on the internet, itās surprising how much we all rely on it now. Earlier this week I had to check a shop address for her, in Paris, so she could pick up something, without the internet she had no idea of the nearest one to her. An added bonus will be lower phone bills as we can now skype her rather than use our mobile phones - dreading those bills when they arrive.
Hope everyone else is doing well and enjoying the milder weather - just like the masses of ladybirds we seem to have - are any of you plagued by them?
Take care
Nicky xx
Hope you are all having a great Sunday ladies? No rain so far today here and even a glimpse of sunshine, the temperatures are actually quite warm and Iāve just got a TShirt on, most of my summer clothes I have packed away as there isnāt enough space for summer & winter things.
Lily you tell a marvellous story, you could easily be a writer. Enjoy your week off school, as you say its so nice not to wake up to an alarm clock.
Nicky tell me about Orange/France Telecom - they are a nightmare! Since we have had our connection to the house Iāve had nothing but problems with the internet - everything tells me its working ok but when I try to find pages - I get that message āIE cannot display webpageā - grrrr and double grrr. I expect your YD has probably got loads of megabites for her internet? Ours is only 1 MB!!! When I asked for more I was told āwell you do live in the countryā. For some things France and technology donāt go together.
Lorraine, good luck with the kidney scans and Lisa well done on feeling like your old self.
Well, Iām going to make the most of the internet whilst I have it so am off to do some browsing.
Hi de hi campers
it never ceases to amaze me how much longer a Sunday seems to last when you havenāt got work the next day. I had intended to work like crazy and get everything done early but that resolve did not last ling and have sat and watched movies both days. Last night I watched Taken with Liam Nieson (spelling I know) and really enjoyed that. Tonight I just sat and watched hitman for the 5th time and enjoyed it just as much. I am desperately waiting for Daniel Craig to appear on my new big tv but need to do that when Victor is out in case I dribble ha ha! Victor has gone DIY crazy and is dashing about finishing jobs and sorting things out! How I hate him sorting things out as it always ends with a mountain of things, that are allegedly mine, plonked in the middle of what I am happily doing for me to sort through. Me - I am a squirrel and only sort out once a year to make room for new nuts Anyway the men are all in bed and I love this time to myself.My insomnia loves this time and tries to set me off doing lots of things which make it even harder to nod off.
Nicky the headache has gone, definitely the cold and I hope you donāt get it too.I was struggling to find any tablets as not needed them for so long.I have lots of best friends:) and hope to add a few more to my treasured collection before too long. Did you see someone have a pop at me the other day on here - ouch!Didnāt take the bait though, not worth bothering, they can argue with someone else who cares.I think our Angie used to call the trolls if I remember right. There are a lot of photos of her added to the site if you want to remember her. It makes me sad but I like to keep her memory going as she was a big part of our cyber lives. Glad you are picking up and evrything crossed for your next check, make sure you keep us posted and I feel good about it x x. Peacock how are you feeling? You sound brighter and I hope the aches are improving. I feel lucky not to have any as I donāt think I would be so patient as some of you are and would get rather moody. I am enjoying (if that could possibly be the case!) tamoxifen as I have read such rotten things about Femara like hair going thin and big pains in hands as well as feet. Nothing like seeing something worse to make you feel that just maybe, right now isnāt so bad. Lorraine I am off next week, why donāt you live nearer and I would come with you to your scans and we could have a big cake afterwards x. Lisa hope all is well and when is your date?
Take care all
Lily x
hiya all, hope you are all okay, catch up later, getting lap top back today, mind you off swimming at 9pm tonigh, brrrhhhh!!! Lily who took a pop at you and what for??? I tend to not look at too many other posts these days xx
i too would probably ignore anyone having a go, just cant be bothered to argue these days! it wasnt me was it? i hope not. i too wished you live nearer wed have lots of cake eating days out, so maybe its a good job you dont, youd be a bad influence. ha ha, whos having a pop now! i wrote a long post the other day and lost the lot. and i couldnt be bothered to do it again.
peacock
thanks for the well wishes, i hope weather continues to be kind to you.
nicky
my scans are ultra sound scan and a nm renogram MAG3 with diuretic. i dont know why im having them, but my friend whose at the same stage as me, as had the ultra sound on her kidneys so seems a routine check here. how did they find the secondaries in your bones if you didnt have bone scan? ive had about 3 now. do worry they may be harmful at times.
lisaf
enjoy the swimming, i went whilst at butlins last week, and loved it, and my prothesis stayed in place, thank god. my cossie off the internet was good hid all my scars. the only thing that rattled my cage, was the changing facilities. there is normally a family changing area with cubicles, but theyd close it, and it was an open area, theyre was no way i was going to give some poor child the fright of its life. a one boobied women! so i asked if they had a private changing room, and the best they could offer was the mother and baby changing room. but at least i didnt frighten anyone. but it just got to me, that nobody considered peope who have body issues for varies reasons. maybe i ought to address it with them?
Hi,
good for you Lorraine and I think you should wake them up to how people feel. It is often because people just donāt think. Of course it was not you, by the way, just someone in a bad mood on another thread. Ha ha I like the ribbing about me and you and cakes, my partner in crime I have never heard of that other scan, what do they do? Glad it is routine in your area and not something else to think about. When do you have them?
Lisa you maniac swimming that late! I feel cold just thinking about it or maybe it is a good time to find the pool empty. Bet Robson thinks youāve lost the plot :)Bet you will be glad to get the laptop back.
Well son was offered a dayās work building 30 laptops for a school so my first lie in was caput as I set the alarm to make sure he was up. He has a terrible cold, blaming me of course. I think he looks far worse and am now worried I might get another one Had lunch out and did some shopping. Came home and watched another 2 movies! Category 7 end of the world was not very good even though I had to keep watching to see how bad it got - very! Little chap wants us to go to see fantastic Mr Fox at the cinema. Anyone know if it is ok for a 4 year old as the story is a bit violent in places.
Julia how are things with you? Does anyone remember Joanne who was also on the same timing for chemo as us? I wonder how she is getting on, she had problems with cmf and I believe stopped it early. Often wonder if she looks in
Nicky glad communications are go go go and enjoy having all the chicks back in the nest for a while. Not long till Christmas.
Love
Lily x
Hi ladies
A quick catch up as either my pc or this website are on a bit of a go slow this morning. Itās happened a few times which means I try to come on here and itās so slow loading the site and then each posting that I give up!
Lorraine - I did have a bone scan that diagnosed my mets but the hospital/oncs Iām with seem to use CTās after that to see and changes rather than give bone scans. So I have to put up with drinking horrible liquids and having contrast dye injected which makes your mouth have a horrible taste and you feel like youāve peeād yourself as the dye dashes round your body, hmmmm.
Lily - lucky you - enjoy the week, but make sure your son gets himself up rather than you having to do it after his 1st day. A lie in during the week is bliss, I had quite a few last week when I wasnāt going in to work. I donāt ever seem to sleep later but itās really nice not to have to get up an go straight away, just be a bit leisurely. Hope the weather holds for you, it was lovely here on Sunday and I took OH out for a bit of a drive and sit out at a couple of pubs along thee Basingstoke Canal (which, by the way, no longer goes to Basingstoke, itās stopped much further up) The trees etc were really lovely colours and it was great just to sit outside in the warm sun - what a lovely end to British Summertime - hope you all remembered to change your clocks
Well, Iām at work most of this week, although probably off on Friday which will be good, then spending some time with YD the following week. ED has started her other job at Benefit (makeup) and loving it - so far! Not sure how sheāll love the Christmas rush and the Sales but hey ho at least sheāll know if she wants to do it on a more serious basis. OH is recovering well from knee op but still having to rest it and exercise it so a bit tiring. Other than that no real news from here.
Hope everyone is feeling OK and that any tests and scans go well.
Nicky x
lovely day out at chester yesterday, i do find im very fatigued at moment with the pain constantly in the background,and try not to share it with hubby, but yesterday i did have a few moans. hubby had a mood on him at one stage because he wanted to go in certain cafe, and it was so full and stunk of melted strong cheese, that i just could not face it. (even though it had yummy cakes!) so off he went in a stropp with me following behind. when i caught up with him, he nearly started again until he could see i was tearful, i dont know where that came from? brought an inspiring book called "what cancer cannot do) its got some stories of peoples cancer journeys, but with a very positive veiw. also i went in a shop that sold aromethoropy etc, and the lady gave me a magazine, which is for people with cancer. some interensting articles in it.
did anyone watch the programme on tv about breast cancer last night? i missed it cos a friend phoned for a chat just as it started, i think it was on the community channel (what ever that is)
my hubby said it was good. one woman had took up yoga for lymphodema, and it had helped.
i went docs today, and hes getting in touch with my onc, to see if he thinks i need appointment before january, which is when i was due. i decided to go, because i dont want to be kicking myself, if i could have done something, if things have deteriated.
take care all, lily make sure you have some lie ins, you wont get aa chance again for a while.
Hi everyone
Weather has been great here, but I think for most of you too it has been good??? We had a disaster with our new boiler last night, it decided to blow up and hot water came oozing out, so have spent most of today in the DIY shop trying to get a new one. Not an easy task here, but eventually they did give us a new one pending a technician looking at our old one (old being one week in use, but bought in the sale in January)! No bath for us tonight as it takes about 10 hours to heat up.
Lily ā any luck with Daniel Craig appearing??? He doesnāt do much for me, but Iāve got a weird choice of hunks. How is Victor getting on with the DIY? Are you enjoying your lay ins? I hope you manage to get some this week instead of ferrying family around. The things we do eh? You mentioned about Angie, although I wasnāt really part of this group I always remember her kindness in answering posts, and she was only just a little bit ahead of me with her diagnosis, very sad. I would like to see the photos but where are they? Can you post me a link please? I donāt know why anyone should have a pop at you ā silly person! Thank you for your good wishes, yes I do feel a bit brighter this week.
Lorraine ā Iām sure that the amount of radiation we have with nuclear scans is so tiny it probably is minimal to our systems ā Iāve had quite a few ā compared to all the chemo and radiotherapy I am sure itās ok. I donāt think they would do such expensive tests so often if it were a great danger to us, what do you think? Your story is funny about the changing rooms at Butlins, mind you it is nearly Halloween so you might have got away with it ā LOL. Did your doctor manage to get in touch with your Onc?
Nicky ā only 5 weeks to wait for the internet/phone??? Thatās not too bad for France you know, Iāve heard of some people who had to wait 3 months. I phoned yesterday to complain and my internet seems to have been a bit better so weāll see. Hope YD is getting on ok, does she like Paris? She is probably speaking more French than English, so donāt be surprised if she starts to āloseā a bit of her English. Our YD is losing it, canāt remember the English words for things when sheās trying to translate. How I wish I could speak much better French but it is quite a hard language to learn (thatās my excuse with an old brain).
Bev ā how is your garden doing?
Hope everyone is ok that I havenāt mentioned and having some great weather this week.
yipppeee lap top back so need to catch up with you but not happy that some of you are having some sun, im sitting here with the window being hammered with rain
Gutted only lost 1lb this week so bit fed up, been out but still kept to weekly points!! Havent had booze during the week for 3 weeks now and really tried, still need bit of chocolate thought but count it!!
Well im sick of waiting round for a certain person but not sure if ready for a blind date that mate is trying to set me up with but the new lisa has made the first move and text him just to break the ice - not sure if I want too much hassle at the moment but will see.
Well new picture coming up soon, got a halloween kids party on Saturday and didnt realise it was adults to dress up too - and a certain person will be there.
Lorraine know what you mean about chanding rooms, i managed to find one with a mirror and door on and as so large felt a bit self concious but done it and got the bug a tad, mind without specs cant seen if anyone looking at me lol.
Well enjoy the rest of your week off Lily and hope everyone having a nice week xx
Hi,
sorry Lisa but it is nice weather down here too and was so hot I went out in a t shirt even this evening. Mind you when the tablets heat me up I might like the cold abit better. Felt the prickly heat gaain over the last few days so I know it must be warmer.Well done for making a move and we will all be witing to hear the gorey details At least we hope to hear about some action! Hi Peacock, bad luck about the boiler but I presume it will be ok as so new? I hope so anyway. We have a new boiler too and the fan has gone already. We have a service deal so it was at least done quickly and free of charge but really anoying as the last one managed to go for 15 years without much bother. No sign of Daniel Craig but I have the DVd somewhere if desperate :). I watched chaos for the 3rd time tonight instead. I do like the action films how about you? Who is your weird heart throb? I only have my son at home now and all4 have their own cars so rarely drive people around, more give them money for petrol, etc, etc! Victor is off too and as he is used to being on a 5 am train wakes up early and keeps talking to me grrrr. Also the dog attacks the door as Victor makes tea in bed so he is on the look out for biscuits - all in all lie ins not going too well.You didnāt tell us how your trip over here went?
Lorraine I can feel that you are struggling at the moment and trying so hard to be cheerful on here. Just let it out and let us help if we can - you were such a good listener and prop for us when we needed it. Do you think you hide too much from your family? I understand not wanting to worry them any more than it already does but it might make them less aware of your needs and a few hugs at the right time.Please let us know whether you are going back to the onc. I feel that they will so that you have someone to talk to about this and also to update you. My friend has started chemo again and has gone from being unable to go anywhere at all and in great pain when moving to being completely mobile again very quickly. So I agree that sometimes going earlier may be a good idea. I also understand the old head in the sand scenario really well. Thinking of you buddy x. Nicky hi - at this time it is never slow lol.Donāt forget to always ask for the water version and donāt have the nasty thick drink when having a CT scan. I had that dodgy taste with the bone scan but not the CT scan. When do you go back for news? Please send your Victor my best wishes for a speedy recovery for his knee. Is he off work?
I decided to ring the podiatrist today to try to get back in his clinic. He told me he would leave me on the list but has failed to do so and there is a 9 month wait yawn. If my GP plays ball he will fast track me. he thinks my acvhilles tendon may be strating to peel off or another bursitis. I still feel that good old tamoxifen is playing a role in this as never had bursitis before and this is my second time. Victor mentioned my weight and then ran FAST! Trouble is I need to rest my foot and so canāt exercise. Doc said I could starve myself - great then I get the shakes when my blood sugar drops and then a migraine. So will rest all my hopes on the foot man to solve it, hopefully not with a big injection in my heel eek. Took my Mum and Uncle out for a bit of early Christmas shopping and lunch today. Victor was fab and rushed to and from the car with their bags so they didnāt have to carry them. Just went to a smallish shopping are where you can walk around a few big shops. The alarm went off as I went out (just for a change!) and looked like a shoplifter gain!! That really annoys me when that happens. Iām a teacher, I canāt look like I am nicking stuff!! Ed came in for dinner as usual but our lovely evening of watching soaps together was rudely interrupted by little chap. He had driven MD round the twist being off school with no organisation and activities and I answered her rescue call. I think it annoys her even more that he settles as soon as he gets here. Experience does it every time - years and years of it.He told me he had been very naughty and screaming. he is on a promise to be good if we are going to go to the cinema this week. Bet he forgets all about being good!
well better sign off and thinking of you all
Lily x
Hello all
Hope you are all having a good week Lisa ā glad youāve got your lappy back and sorry about your weather, itās been great here so far this week really spring like. Donāt get upset at losing a 1lb, a 1lb lost is better than a 1lb gained, when I did a weightwatchers diet a few years back it was better to lose a small amount than large amounts, apparently is keeps off after. Good luck with the texting and hope it brings about a new friendship. Enjoy the rest of your week and enjoy your Halloween ādoā.
Lily when you say tablets, do you mean hormonals? I am not sure whether I get hot flushes or not, sometimes I just feel boiling and sometimes I feel normal. Well I suppose my weird hunks arenāt so weird, I like Brad Pitt, I like Patrick Dempsey, Orlando Bloom is nice but a bit young for me (as if!) and my plastic surgeon is just gorgeous! Canāt wait to see him again but donāt know when that will be. My trip to UK went well, saw lots of family and my gorgeous daughter aged 27, son aged 24 and granddaughter aged 5. She seems to change so much each time I see her as I suppose not seeing her as often means I notice the changes more. Sheās a joy and I canāt wait to have her out to stay with me for a few weeks, hopefully next summer if sheās ready for it. I did loads of shopping, went to Primark, Peacocks, M & S, Boots and just stocked up on some things it was a joy to experience the UK shops, theyāre so much nicer than ours and so many good offers. Spent ages in the 99p shops. Good job I took an empty case over because it weighed over coming back LOL. I also got some Chrissie presents, so feel I did pretty good, thanks for asking. It was lovely too to see my 83 year old Mum. How is your foot and are you resting it ok? Enjoy the cinema with the wee fellow, what are you going to see?
Lorraine & Nicky hope things arenāt too bad for you and you are seeing some good weather, sunshine always makes us feel better doesnāt it?
Update on our boiler ā fitted yesterday brand new, tonight it blew up again so tomorrow back to square one! Grrrhhhhhā¦
thank god for children, had grandaughter today, and watching her and spending time with here really cheered me. she got a strop when we were playing that game where your not allowed to say yes or no, and she was out very quick, we had lots of fun, bumper boats, crazy golf etc. still in pain but it took my mind of things for a while.
go for kidney scan tommorow which is booked in for 9.20 in the morning so 11/2 pints of water 1 hour before, and no toilet stop, trouble is ive wet myself laughing with my sis before, and shes coming with me. perhaps i ought to wear an incontinence pad.
nicky
i only had the clear water with my ct scan so like lily says im sure they can give you that
peacock
hope you get problem with boiler sorted. yes we are enjoying nice weather too, its great for time of year.
lily
yes your right i have been slightly low, but hopefully my mood will improve soon, and it doesnt really matter if i share it with family, they still seem to expect me to be strong. but i think it keeps me going sometimes cos i find moaning can become a habit, so i have to find a way to manage the pain, but im grateful for your thoughts, your so kind to recognise my feelings. blew the diet tonight, treacle sponge and custard, mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
Just the long wait now but Iām trying not to think about it too much, however that will no doubt change nearer my followup appointment time.
Had lunch out and did some shopping. Came home and watched another 2 movies! Category 7 end of the world was not very good even though I had to keep watching to see how bad it got - very! Little chap wants us to go to see fantastic Mr Fox at the cinema. Anyone know if it is ok for a 4 year old as the story is a bit violent in places.