Old habits don’t go away :o) I am a bit of a bargin hunter at heart, so the shop was double the satisfaction :o)
Thx for the tip, I should have thought about asking th bcn, I am so used to doing things myself, I forget I need help now.
Today was a ‘can’t sit down day’ did loads of thing that I need not do, I even did some ironing as all the bedding was tumbled so I just finished them off, I hate unironed beds lol…although I guess that will be a thing of the past when I’m not here.
I baked my ex some muffins today…we had had a lovely evening, just chatting and watching tv but I went and spoilt it with one of my digs and he really didn’t deserve it. I think it was because we were so normal with each other, spending time in each others company more, made me realise what we could have still had, I suppose. He has been so caring, patient, kind and sensitive (the man I married 22 yrs ago) It made me sad… We both have made some big mistakes but now I suppose its a time to reflect and leave them behind us now.
This all seems somewhat strange…I feel like I am being able to put things in to perspective somehow, I suppose I think more as I have the time but its more like gradually letting go, the day to day things that were so important, that created frustration, don’t seem to be anymore. I’m not explaining it very well. I still want to be here, my goodness I do, for as long as possible…
I have another 2 goals now…yet another school visit to the tutor this time on the 2nd and my son’s birthday on the 4th. Mayb a tad ambitious but hey! who knows. I’ll just take one day at a time although it goes against the grain :o)
Love to all who keep me going, you are all invaluable and I hope those that love you realise that, just make each day as good for each other (friends or partners)as you can :o)
Oppps nearly forgot…an Art Deco spoon would be lovely…I collect art deco pots/jugs etc. Hence the name ( nothing to do with joints ) :o)
Clare -
I really hope you get to those dates that mean so much to you. I love reading your posts every day.
As for spoons - I have a small Clarice Cliff one that I would love to donate to you to help you get to your sons birthday *hands it over with love*
I’ve been following your journey and silently sending you good wishes.
I’ve come across some art deco spoons.
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These can be for ‘every day’ and you save the Clarice for ‘best’.
I loved your beautiful poem. Your daughter sounds very gifted, just like her mum
So glad you enjoyed the day with your sister and also muffins with your ex.
I’m sure you’ll reach your next two goals
Hugs and prayers
Chris xx
Hi Clare,
Another wonderful humorous and thought-provoking post.
Loving the spoons DJ. Alas I have nothing so gorgeous to offer, but here is a long handled one in case there’s something that takes a bit more ‘reaching for’ --------------------------O
Hi Clare
Great to see you’ve had so many positive things happening over the last few days Here’s to reaching your next 2 goals and then on to the next ones! I’m with you on the unironed bed sheets, something I wish I didn’t feel I need to do but always end up ironing them anyway. You remind me (and I’m sure some of us oldies on here) of another lovely lady, Debs, who chatted away just like you - and ironed her sheets. Her ‘thing’ was shoes
Nicky xx
Hello Clare, hope you had a good night. Really hoping that you get to your next two goals , if anyone can do it it is you. There are bucket loads of spoons (posh art deco ones, of course) coming your way from all of us to help. It is my youngest daughter’s 18th birthday on the 4th and I shall be thinking of you and your son. I cannot believe you are baking muffins and ironing bedding! I feel utterly ashamed and should start baking immediately.
You are an inspiration.
Liz xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Early to bed for me, I’m knackered :o)
Another nice day though, I can’t complain really…My good friend Jenny, a fellow gardener, arty, chatty outgoing lady ( we have alot in common) came round. We were supposed to go walkies as there is a walk just a few miles away we do each year at this time. Its a beautiful area, full of spring, numerous different types of snowdrops and cilla and all kinds of beautiful things to see. Potentially i wouldn’t have made it but i considered it worth a try, even if I had to struggle on the hilly bit on the way back. But as you said Sadie its raining cats and dogs…so instead I made some scones for Jenny, she’s a creamaholic…and we sat and chatted for hours stuffing our faces with scones and strawberry jam…yummy.
It does seem somewhat odd, doing all these things when a few weeks ago I felt so bad. I suppose I am just pushing onwards mentally. Physically I know i am degenerating, I feel fluey almost permanently and a bit out of touch sometimes although most of my body is still functioning and there’s nothing wrong with my eating. I just don’t want to waste time really, although my scones were particualarly rubbish but they tasted ok, just flat!!!
I think I will make an appointment with the doctor about the fluey feeling, perhaps its an indication or something, I dunno.
Mum is coming tomorrow, not got anything planned apart from taking a bit of school uniform back to change. I dare say we may find something to do…she will want to clean or iron and stuff but I hate her doing it. My son said he would get up and hoover the sitting room at least, it does look a mess but I just rested this afternoon.
Thanks for all the lovely spoons…stunning the glass ones and the claris cliff…very envious lol.
I have labled some of my collection as I asked various visitors if they wanted any of them, so they picked a few they liked which made me happy :o) One friend Tina just wanted this little, not one of my best jugs cause she had a shelf that size and it would fit in perfectly. Whether my friends know me so well but none were freaked out about picking one, well they didn’t seem to be…
I am off to the pub on Thursday night, so must rest up for that as I am not so good in the evening. Its my friends birthday and we always it the village pub. I hope I don’t spoil it and have to come back too early. I’m not actually sure if i will make it but i will have a go.
I’m off to blanket street, hope you all have a good nights rest x
Blimey Clare you put me to shame, all this baking you are doing. I made corn bread today, sounds clever doesn’t it…not so, it was a mix, just add egg and milk. I used to bake a lot but haven’t had the enthusiasm since chemo.
Do please make an appointment to see your GP, he/she will be able to prescribe something to make you feel more comfortable, flu type symptoms are horrid.
Good to hear you enjoyed the day spent with Jenny, let’s hope the weather brightens up soon and you can attempt the intended walk.
Bless your son, the male species aren’t usually very willing to do housework, he sounds a caring and helpful lad.
I know how much you’ll be looking forward to seeing your mum and having a lovely time together, enjoy the day and chatter.
Here’s hoping you’re away in the land of nod by now and not cruising the up all nighters thread.
What a nice day, chilling with your mate and eating scones and jam and cream. Makes me feel hungry! Your posts are a joy.
I think it’s lovely that you are able to share your jug collection with your friends. A little jug is not so awkward that people will have trouble finding a place for it to go, and every time they see it they’ll think of you, which is lovely. And so good that they are able to pick one they like from your collection. I’m astounded at just how practical you are, even if more than a little puzzled by the obsession on ironing bedclothes…
Anyway, sweet dreams (or I hope you had some and you don’t read this until the morning) and I hope you have a lovely day with your mum. I’m sure there will be a coffee shop somewhere close to the school uniform place where you can sit and watch the world go by for a while.
Another lovely post Clare - your descriptions are so vivid I almost feel I can see what you are describing.
I think it’s a lovely gesture to let your friends choose a little jug now when it can be pleasurable for you and them, if a little ‘surreal’ (to pinch the title of your thread). When the time comes everyone will know which is theirs, so no squabbling over who gets which, no anxiety for your children about ‘would mum have wished this or that’ and above all special memories of ‘the day we ate scones and cream’ or whatever it is. I have one or two little items given to me in a similar way, they have zero commercial value, but are endlessly precious and rich in special memories.
Hope you doctor can alleviate your flu symptoms without stealing your spoons, and that come Thursday you’re able to get out to the pub for your friend’s party.
I’m another sheet ironer, I’m afraid… love the scent of ironed linen and the feel of smooth sheets as I slip between them. OK, i’m just weird!
Everso wet here today, so here’s a brolly frae bonnie Scotland to keep you dry {—
Morning Clare, Im sorry, Im in the ‘not iron sheets’ camp!! Jam nd scones …yummy!! Hope today brings more yummy things. Im not sure how to ‘draw’ scones but here goes…
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I think mine are a bit flat too - but hope they made you smile!!
I opened this thread a few days ago with trepidation, “secondaries” and “surreal place” … but I have fond your posts so comforting, amusing and just normal. It’s taken away some of that fear that no matter how positive you are is always there!
Having just finished chemo this along with another post, has given me a kick up the backside to get up and live life!
Spring cleaning it is, OH has banned me from cake making, my chemo has made him put weight on (oops)!
Will be thinking of you on the 4th - its a significant day for me for other reasons.
I read your posts everyday and although I don’t say too much, I just want you to know that I am holding spoons in reserve and sending you lots of hugs.
A couple of times I have made flat scones, I just put two together so you end up with big fat ones oozing jam and cream.
Another non-iron person here.
Hope you have a lovely day with your Mum xx
Scones and strawberry jam sound yummy
I love the idea of offering each of your friends a jug from your collection. My friend moved up North a year ago and she’s put the three candle holders that me and two other friends gave her, on her window sill to remind her of us. I’m sure your friends will do the same with their jugs
Hope you enjoyed today with your mum
Hugs and prayers Chris xx
Hope you have a good night.