I’d have to be crazy to get a dog. Pets are not my thing but I hope it brings you lots of fun CT
Fel - oh my I’m so sorry you lost your son how awful cxxxxx
Moo moo yay half way, looking forward to my halfway point last chemo was hard mentally.
Happy birthday Jamsey how thoughtful of everyone to come to you.
Those cottonedp hats are just too big for my head. I’ve given up and am wearing a woolly bobble hat to bed. I’m must look hilarious !
Keep swimming xxx
Jamsey happy birthday for yesterday. Fel big 
To you, so sorry to hear about your son. Getting a dog has always been something we wanted but with working the hours we did before this it has always been cats for us, but we too are seriously considering a dog or two now, one of the things we really learn amongst other things on this journey is don’t put things off and live, love and laugh everyday to its fullest ???
shi xx
Good luck for tomorrow shocked… 1 more ticked off.
I started off wearing a cotton sleep cap but it always slipped off or over my face lol! Don’t bother with anything now - one benefit of my half balding head is that it allows the heat to escape from my hot flushes!!!
Had an interesting chat with my district nurse today that I thought I would share. Told her how low I have been these last couple of weeks (this last weekend was the worst) and she commented - “ah Yes, that will be the halfway blues”!! Apparently it happens a lot. You get a boost initially from recognizing your half way, but then often dip when you realise you have the same to go again. Helped me to know it was something she had seen in others.
She also mentioned that though tough…each one often then feels emotionally that bit easier as you have less left than has already been - here’s hoping!
So sorry Fel for the loss of your son.
Happy Birthday Jamesey for yesterday.
Me too Aliand, my bamboo beanie falls off at night or causes my ears to hurt as it touches them.
moomoo I’m up on Wednesday so my last meal tonight as I’m going to try fasting 24 hours before and after this time hoping it will help with the constipation.
Hope everyone else is doing ok?
I wanted to ask you all how you are finding driving with this chemo brain going on. Yesterday I scared myself as I went over on a red and later reversed into another car… fortunately no damage. The woman in the car was going to have a go at me but her husband was chilled out thank god. I quickly rehearsed a pity speech… etc. I’m thinking of stopping driving altogether. Has anyone looked up if there are any clauses on an insurance policy. I’m not taking any meds at the moment so it is totally chemo induced.
lots of love xxx sorry for bold but can’t sort it x
Oh starfire she is beautiful!!
Lol Shocked, a donkey! Not exactly a pet that can curl up on your lap ? Great news that you’re good to go tomorrow ?
I haven’t bothered wearing a hat at night, I do wear one round the house tho, I feel a bit naked without one.
Starfire, I haven’t had any problems driving. The only thing my chemo brain does is makes me forget how to finish a sentence. I start saying something and then it’s just gone! My partner gets a bit frustrated with it, ha ha.
Well I didn’t have to have the biopsy as planned. The man (dr I guess?) that did the ultrasound said my lymph nodes have shrunk since the scan (yay) so he wouldn’t be able to get enough tissue so has recommended another scan instead.
3rd and last EC tomorrow which will be good to get done and dusted, although hopefully I don’t get the halfway blues you mentioned CT ?
All the best swimmers ?
Starfire, totrue is beautiful, is it me or does the look on her face say, bet you wish you had as much hair as me? ???keep focused ladies and keep swimming and think of them in 3 week blocks not as the same again and in reality if you put the 2 weeks out of the 3 all together it’s only 6 more weeks which is half a term and they fly by ???shi xx
Wow Fel your wig looks amazing… and look at your dogs!! So cute ?
Yea my mouth has been worse this time (cycle 3). Got the dreaded oral thrush back again and horrid taste. Got my flucolzanole on the go now though so hoping will be better in a couple of days x
Hi fel, you look fantastic ??beautiful photo of you and your lovely dogs, thanks for sharing ???shi xx
Looking good Fel - love the wig.
Amy - don’t suppose I can sit on the sofa with the donkey
Starfire that is a beautiful cat - here’s my furry friend who’s keeping me close to sane.
Thanks for your birthday wishes xx gel you look amazing , I put my wig on on Friday for the first time and I love it . Today I put a short blonde one on and I loved that too ,
Seeing all your pets has made me realise how much I miss my dog , perhaps a new little bulldog might join me at the end of the year x
Top one is our little Corrie shes the boss
Bottom one is Sergio and hes just weird
Dealdoh…Nice to see you back above water xxxx
I thought as we have all done our Fur babies it might be good to upload a before cancer happy day photo!!
Heres mine with me and my husband sitting on the step Bob Marley sat on and wrote 3 little birds…agh I miss my hair!!!
Rosie, we seem to be having similar SE’s and the driving is a worry. It’s like I’m drunk. Great pic! My daughter loves Three Little Birds… Bob is her favourite singer! I thought you might like to see a pre-C one of us three taken a couple of years ago but at hand… kind of in keeping with Bob Marley don’t you think? The baldness is still a shock!
Dealdoh, yes Tottie is 3/4 Maine **bleep** 1/4 Bengal but very MC like x
Im on tomorrow so I’ll be a bit quiet for a while.
Lots of love to you All xxx 
The dreads are in a box now and my daughter helped the hairdresser cut them off.
Aliand I haven’t told many family or any close friends so im short on visitors too. Low profile, head down and hear goes the next one.
Speak soon.
Deep breath and swim xx
Totally with you Aliand… this is a safe place to let go of how we are truly feeling…so yeah don’t ever feel that you can’t say how you feel on here - we are in this together girls, and let’s face it no one can truly understand it unless they have been through it themselves xx
Fel - nowt wrong with scrambled eggs - any food is better than no food I say.
Today has been a better day for me. Chemo fog Starting to lift as I enter week 2, it like someone gives me a bit of a shake and I wake up from a weeklong nightmare wondering what on earth that was all about! Oral thrush is improving slowly which also helps.
Spent some time this am sat in my garden with a coffee in my little porch area watching the birds on the feeders - felt really chilled or first time in what feels like forever! I’ve also been to my dad’s flat today and sorted through some of his things with my sister, which actually was a lovely cathartic experience.
Driving - yup I don’t drive week 1. Tried it in cycle one and frightened myself - drove my daughter home from her martial arts class at 40mph. Never again!!!
Here’s to another good day tomorrow…fingers crossed x
It is so good to start feeling normal again and still 10 days to go before my first T! I’m dreading starting this new drug as well Shocked but as I think we have all learned on this journey so far, every one reacts to these drugs differently and there is no way of knowing whether you are going to be one of the lucky ones who dodges the chemo side effects truck or one of the not so lucky ones who gets run over by it. Only time will tell.
I tend not to drive for the first week following chemo and having asked my hubby whether he has found any change in my driving, he says he doesn’t think it is any worse but I am sure I heard under his breath “than it normally is”. ?
I have been very lucky with the support I have received both from friends and family, even more appreciated by the fact that none of them are local now as my husband and I moved away to our new home a year ago. My brothers and sisters are scattered all over the country but most have visited at least once since this cancer journey began and my two closest friends have also visited. My daughter comes to visit with my lovely first grandson towards the end of each cycle and stays for a couple of days. I am very lucky.
Ahh CT are you a bird watcher too? I love to stand at the kitchen window and watch them and was thrilled to see a thrush the other day and we also get woodpeckers.
Well, I guess I should try and get some sleep. Hugs to you all xx
???everyone who has treatments today, that’s another 
off for you ???keep ???and keep swimming. Don’t worry about t, everyone is different and just take one treatment at a time ???I’ve got early ???this morning so wanted to send ??to you all before I go for my ???bap zapping ???shi xx
Thanks shocked ??no 14 6 more to go ???then onto club Tropicana we will keep ???ready for you ladies too, keep swimming, keep focused and keep looking forwards you won’t need any rubber ring chucking soon my beautiful ???ladies ??shi xx
Shocked lovely ??beautiful photo ??looks like most of us had rapunzel locks then, bobbed Mine and sent to little princes wigs for kids before chemo started before I went for the kojak Etta style ??don’t worry about ???drink 2-3 l of water, keep creaming ??bap and under arm area, most people use e45, Aveno, aloe Vera, aloe Vera with tea tree or moo goo natural skin milk udder cream, make sure no sls’s in the cream. Take yourself off to the beach in your head while they play the music into the room and ???outta there, extra points for getting theme dance in on the way out to get changed, double extra points if you can get any other ladies to join in too ???shi xx
