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Hi peeps

so another day completed in the office. Just home, having a cuppa and catching up on here. 

 

Delly love. I can’t even pretend to understand what happened or why, but what I do know is that this s**t disease does things to people. It changes us and those around us and perhaps you got caught up in something that wasn’t entirely about you. I also know you have the heart the size of a 4 bed house and you wear it with pride on your sleeve. That can leave you vulnerable to criticism as not everyone is that open. 

Im an open book, like you, and will chat away to all and sundry but not everyone is the same. 

As much as it sounds like a cliche, somethings happen in life that we will never fully understand - this is one of those times. Draw a line under it, park it away somewhere and put it down to experience. We are all still here for you so forget that. You may have to listen to my hormonal ramblings now that I’m back in work though!!!

 

im knackered surprise surprise ( said in my best Cilla voice) but my sister has surprised me with tickets to see La La Land this evening so I’m trying the rest before heading out again. Love spending time with her!! My baby sis mwahhhh ?

 

Hope everyone else is doing ok. Sending hugs all round

xxx

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Hello :-D.
Helena your garden looks lovely, I can’t wait for better weather I really need to sort out our totally overgrown wisteria it’s got so bad it’s broken the fence it’s growing on. Like Janey gardening has been my therapy.
Talking of which I start mine tomorrow.

Dizzy I think it was you who asked about work, I had my meeting today about upping hours I’m in everyday till 3.15 next week then back to full time hours the following week but I’m still on light duties which really means I don’t push the children in the heavier wheelchairs!
I find Mondays are really hard I have no idea why but I’ve really got to change my mind set for that day.
Lovely Lesley I hope your head is better today xx
I’m so sorry your upset Delly, I really hope it all gets sorted.xxx
Lily thank you for your hugs and get well wishes I’m feeling better but my glands are still up and my ears hurt.
I’m hoping it’s not so icy tomorrow morning works car park was like an ice rink and I went flying as I got out of the car right onto my behind… I was so glad no one was around to see it and it took ages to get up I had to haul myself on to the car seat and pull myself up.I was totally fine though
Catch you all later tons of love Clair xxx

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So… Two ibrupofen taken at 5pm and two cocodamol just now. That should get me through 2.5 hours in the cinema. ?? 

I’VE HAD TO PUT MY BRA BACK ON!!! Noooooooooooooo

this film had better be worth the 14 Oscar nominations!!! Lol

xxx

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Hello all, just catching up from my hotel room in Bath, thank the lord it has good internet! And also that I packed my tablet and charging cable in the suitcase because I’ve managed to leave my handbag at home, I haven’t done that in years. Sadly it means I haven’t got any money, so have to to spend on the OH’s debit card…!

I’m completely cream crackered at the moment, having done the full tourist monty, except for the open top bus, it’s a bit cold for that. But we’ve been round the baths, the pump Room, the assembly rooms and the fashion museum, and the tour round and round the city trying to find the entrance to the Royal Crescent. Our room must have been in the servants quarters, we’re up so high, but have a fab view over the city. Luckily there’s a lift, I’m getting too old and worn-out for this malarkey.

 

Delly, I’m sorry to hear you sounding so upset, these things hurt. And we’re all of us easily hurt at the moment, our resilience is at a really low ebb. Maybe this is one of the things you have to put down to experience, and try to put behind you. I know it’s easy for someone else to say, and I’m a fat one to talk, I too get upset over things very easily. Anyway, sending you love and hugs, and hope things seem better soon.

 

Helena, you mean you don’t play basketball in your spare time, what a shame, you’ve shattered my illusions. Beth, that was another long day, enjoy your evening out with your sister.

Clair, hope you’re better soon, it’s a real downer to be fighting a bug at the same time as stepping up your days and times.

I echo what Lily said, I am so impressed with all of you working through this, I really don’t think I could manage it. Well done all of you.

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Good evening all,

 

Did peep in earlier and started composing a comforting message to Delly but really didn’t know what to say except, try not to let whatever has happened get you down.  I. Know it’s easy to say and hard to do, I know I myself go over things over and over trying to work out how? Why?  So just sending you a hug, and hope you’re busy doing something nice.

 

Been a horrible day here after all the lovely sunshine of late.  Went to get the papers this morning in freezing fog, hardly lifted all day.  Managed to do a few jobs then relaxed doing jigsaw, reading and knitting.  Only problem is, my left eye is constantly watering, Ive got a wad of tissue wedged on side of it being held in place by glasses, something else to ask gp about.  She’ll regret asking me to make an appointment with her.

 

Janey, hope you’ve had a nice day celebrating OH birthday.  Beth, enjoy the film, heard great things about it.  Clair, Charys is right, staff car parks should be gritted.  Be careful, you’re only just back at work.

 

Garden look lovely Helena, can’t wait for spring then summer to arrive.  I missed last summer, for some reason I couldn’t stand being in the sun, most unlike me.

 

Hope everyone else had a good day xx

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Dizzy, Have a lovely time in Bath xx

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Dont worry I did tell the caretaker when I found him and he put a sign out and said he’d grit it tonight just in case :slight_smile:
Dizzy Bath sounds fabulous xx
That’s a total bargain for your hedges Helena my hubby does ours at the moment but with the way his health is going I think we’ll have to get someone in.
Enjoy the film Beth I’ve heard it’s good
Xx

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Dizzy, Bath’s the place to be at the moment, only a week ago both Janey and I were there too! (Not together you understand)

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Hi Delly,

 

was just reading your posts…so sorry you have been having a rotten time xx

 

i guess we all have been there and things havent worked out ladies, havent we?

 

One thing that I have found useful…and I am talking  about me not you…Delly

is that when ive had a misunderstanding or upset with someone… texting has rarely worked with the person concerned,  

 

I havent yet discovered a way to put over the true sentiment that im meaning…the other person often looks for hidden meanings or more usually, finds something offensive that wasnt meant…or I have…so yes, meeting up and chatting has always been more successful.

 

Also, I’ve been discovering that doing absolutely nothing in response for a while, sleeping on it, can help me to stand back a bit…im usually tempted to rush straight in and get things sorted…but that has often  been unsuccessful.  Xx

 

much love Delly

Moijanxx

 

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Charys, i see nothing wrong with your perhaps travelling to Bath with Janey ( just so long as im also invited lol)

 

Ooh, I nearly put that in quite the wrong way, just spotted it and changed the wording! Xx

 

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Bath is such a lovely place, especially if the sun shone, hope you have a wonderful wonderful time. It was the birthday destination for OH a few years ago. Today it was to Gittisham and The Pig, where we made pigs of ourselves! Lovely spot and you can walk around the kitchen gardens, which were pretty amazing - even though I think my onions are further ahead!
I thought you may practice bowls in your garden Helena, well until you said it was on a slope!
Clair go to the docs. Wish I’d taken advice sooner. I read all the newspaper reports saying don’t waste your doctor’s time, so didn’t (I thought!). Anyway, I had an ear infection and did need antibiotics. I am loathe to take them but they worked a treat. Charys has very kindly never said I told you so!
Lesley, hope your eye can be sorted and Beth I hope you undid the bra and enjoy the film - no one can see in the dark!
Lee I bet you’re not cold and Rubycat a better day today?
Delly everyone has given you fluffy wisdom. Firm believer in "tomorrow is another day. So easy to overthink and we all are so sensitive. Big hugs xxx

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Do you have open days to show your garden off Clair?  It’s lovely.  I don’t do any gardening at all, Himself does it, but last summer we started paying someone to cut the grass as it always does his back in and he wont let me anywhere near the mower because I’m so clumsy he’s convinced I’ll either cut my toes off or electrocute myself.  I’m very good at giving out orders though, plant this there, cut that back etc.

 

Glad You and OH enjoyed his birthday treat Janey.

 

Lunch out tomorrow with an old colleague and again on Friday with another friend, it’s a hard life xx

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Ha-ha no Lesley I do love gardening but it’s no show garden just my bit if heaven xx

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Charys, You wait until  summer when Janey starts growing her cucumbers!

 

Right, it’s off to bed for me with the latest Peter James book.  Night night xx

 

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Hmmmmm what to say about La La Land?? My sister absolutely loved it. Me? Not so much lol

its very stylised, singing is average and it’s all about jazz!! Not a fan of jazz!! Anyway, I’m glad my sister enjoyed it and it was lovely to spend the evening with my sis. There were ladies actually crying at the end of the film! I must have missed that bit! Genuinely I have no idea how it’s had so many Oscar nominations. 

 

love the garden pics!! I am so not green fingered and neither is hubby. It’s as much as we can do to keep the grass short!

 

I’m off to bed now so catch you all tomorrow

hugs all round

xxx

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Clair, your garden looks gorgeous, and I remember before Christmas you spent a lot of time working out there when I was shivering in my shoes twenty miles away saying it was too cold to be gardening. So you have the garden you deserve for all your hard work. I do love red Acer’s in particular, I might buy one to mark this year as my new beginning.

Well I came a bit of a cropper tonight, I’ve been happily going round Bath in jeans and boots and a parka, my uniform. Came time for dinner, got on my glad(ish) rags and discovered that dinner was in the Dower House across the garden. So it was parka or freeze…

Ladies, I froze. I scuttled down the path at top speed. And after dinner I was nicely warmed by a few drinks, no problem at all. But if I’d known I’d have taken something marginally more presentable than the parka.

 Tomorrow we’re off to Bristol to see the younger son and the daughter, and a night on the sofa bed in her spare bedroom.

 

This has been part of my Christmas present, a trip away to look forward to planned for when the rads were done with and the prosthetic was sorted so I was comfortable getting dressed up again.

There was a stage this afternoon when I was ready to behave like toddler again, I sat on a bench and refused to move till I’d had a rest, and nearly burst into tears I was so tired. Good job the OH has a sense of humour…

 

 

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Night night lovelies xx

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Charys…would need to be a large bath…have probs( nakkered knees due to lifting…am I allowed to say this? She wonders)    getting _ out _ of a bath with just myself in it! However, I can swim, so maybe we could do that?

 

xx

 

 

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Just dancing off to bed…?  ’ OHHHHH, you put your left leg in, your left leg out, in out in out, and shake it all about’ tra la

 

zzzzzzz

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Haha, no not cold here. I had a little swoon at the markets this morning and my daughter had to go get the car. Poor old lady. Now laying in the cool under a fan reading and chatting online.