Standing outside the dark, dark woods.

My hair is still intact -although a bit dry and brittle so don’t think I’ll bother having it shaved just yet.
So inspired with all of you going wigless but don’t know I could- maybe if I were younger. I don’t mind people knowing I have a wig- just don’t want them to see me bald - although Anyone I have seen,particularly Scaco, looks beautiful!
My grandson, who’s lived with me since he was a baby, has been really stressed and not sleeping but refusing to talk to me so last night I came down when I heard him at 3.00am. Discovered he’s really worried about me and scared despite my reassurances so we had a long talk and I think it’s helped him -but the thought of him seeing me bald is really freaking him out!(he’s 19).
Feeling good today!!! Might go linedancing tonight!!
Scaco, can’t see my GP referring me for Reiki or aroma therapy can hardly get painkillers or sleeping tablets for a few days!!
Goodluck Janip may your SE’s be absent!
Cheryl have sent message to Bringiton and good luck from me!

Margaret - it was the sister at the chemo unit who booked me in for aromatherapy not GP. I happens at the hospital, in the chemo bit and i have it done whilst i’m waiting for bloods, might be worth an ask when you go again, or maybe a phone call.

P.S - thanks for the compliment, all greatfully received at present!

Evening All,
I am armed with moonface, generallybloated and toomuchgetupandgoforyourowngood. I have to visit the docetaxel witch for tomorrow :0(, but for the last time :0))). Let’s hope she stays away from left eyebrow and what is left of my scalp and lady garden cesarean fringe!
SCACO: I’m a firm believer in visualisation and it certainly makes me feel better that troops are on the march to the right places. I am actually trained in reiki and it helps also. it generates healing and a sense of well being that can lift the spirits. One can send reiki so if anyone wants some over in the recovery tent I can send some your way.
I agree with Margaret’s comment SCACO- you look lovely without hair. I have an odd shaped head and would look s*** without.
Have a lovely weekend all. Can you save me a duvet in recovery for tomorrow night please?
Sue
Sue

Good luck for tomorrow Sue, hope it goes well x

And one for me too, please. I have a morning appointment instead of afternoon now (any bets on whether it will stil be a.m. when the treatment starts?), so it will be interesting to see if this has any affect on how I feel.

Cheryl

Duvets ready, pillows plumped up in recovery tent for you both for tomorrow x

Hi all, got loads to catch up on (been spending far too much time on facebook lately, no other excuse, just trying to beat a friend’s high score on WordDrop… do NOT start if you haven’t played, far too addictive).

Got 1st TAX tomorrow, wish me luck!!! Haven’t got around to painting fingernails yet, shall do them when we get home tomorrow.

Hugs to all who need them, flame throwers charged and ready, cache of fags and booze in back left hand corner of tent, come help yourselves if you’re running short…

Sophie xx

Sending goodvibes fairies to all who need them…those having tax…remember the frozen peas…my nails are fine as a result!

Went linedancing and danced most of the night!Good to see all my friends.
Good luck to everyone getting chemo tomorrow .
I’m so glad I found you all because it seems to make the time go faster and it helps so much to know you’re not the only one - but I’m sorry you have to do it as well.
Not tired so might have the sherry again! Second time in a week? I’m sure the BC nurse said occasional drink maybe 1 glass a week?
Or will I stick to the virtual ones on here?
Sleep tight
X X X
Margaret
PS Good luck today Sue

Push the boat out Margaret! So glad you enjoyed the linedancing, cheers me up to see you so well and ticking off the chemo but still managing to have fun. Sleep well xx

Good luck Sophie, hope all goes ok today,
Tracey
X

Good luck to all today. xx

hey all,
do read reg but havent posted for ages, and ages. xx

i tried the reki, and i kept laffing as the lady kept making contact with me, when she said it was no contact. i went twice but unfortuanlty wasnt sold on whether it was doing anything.

ive heard reflexolgy is good.

Never mind Reiki where they don’t even touch you, a darn good sports massage is just the thing for me, the firmer the better. I like to feel almost bruised after a massage.

Reflexology is, to all intents and purposes, a very nice foot massage. Yes, you can go along with all the fluffy stuff if it floats your boat, but even a total cynic like me can enjoy a good foot rub!

Not quite sure of the name of the gremlin that’s got mixed up in our best made plans, but OH’s op scheduled for today was cancelled by phone yesterday evening. Never mind all the assorted arrangements that had to be made (his work, his kids, their mum, my treatment dates), that all went out the window. Frustrating or what!!! When he spoke to the blokey at the hospital today, a date of 11th March was suggested. Hmm, the day after FEC1? Well that’ll be a no, then! They’re supposed to call him back “this afternoon” with a date but so far the phone’s been VERY quiet. Am I surprised?

Watch out, Limbo Swamp, here I come and I’m bringing my man with me too, this time! AAAAAAARRRGGHHH!!! (Splosh!)

That’s rubbish chocciemuffin!!! As if it’s not bad enough and now both of you having things done! Good luck with everything I know everybody on here will be thinking about you ! See you both in the JM
Might have a cointreau tonight- well there’s orange in it so it must be healthy and I’ll add a squeeze of lemon!
My “best” friend has been in bed all week with a sore throat!!!
Phoned me and first words were " I’m soooooo tired!!!
Won’t tell you what I wanted to say!
I seem to have an active- ish day then one where I could sleep most of it is everyone the same?
Wonder what I’ll wear to JM tonight? Maybe my old cowboy gear complete with stetson and boots? They’re up in the loft because we dance to Lady GaGa nowadays!
X X X Margaret

Save a corner of the JM for me with a fruit platter, lots of soft drinks and the duvet. Did someone say cake? I’ll have a laugh watching the rest of you…

Oh, plus a timer for the ondansetron… wish it was an ondes martinot to try to play instead (that’s the early electronic instrument that makes wierd spacey sounds). Can someone have a rummage around in the music cupboard for me?

Cheryl

See you in the JM later!

CM here’s a rope, come on out of the swamp and join us in the JM it might help to pass the time? I am now re-ex day minus 6 but boy has it seemed like a long time… I am clinging to the edge of the limbo swamp but have made some stepping stones out of “useful” things to do and work stuff. What a swine for you both.

Margaret, surely cowboy boots stetson etc still work with Lady Gaga as long as you stick flesh coloured spikes on your face and jump out of an egg? I agree that Cointreau must be one of the five a day, and lemon probably another one too.

Hope all chemo ladies are bearing up well and the duvet corner is wafting lavender and is a relaxing lit sanctuary. We are providing earplugs so that you aren’t disrupted by Margaret’s bagpipes, any ancient instruments or Lady Gaga music we may be playing later on… x

Line up the assorted pints of London Pride. Me, and OH, and dog, will be popping in later. (Are partners allowed?) Apologies for the puddles of swamp water round our feet, and thanks MG for the rope. I was thinking of using it to do nasty things to the bloke at the hospital who promised to call OH back but just DIDN’T!!!

I’ve already done all the useful stepping stones, and running round after OH was intended to be my distraction until the start of chemo, as I’ve already booked wig fitting, LGFB, Headstrong, dentist, dental hygienist, and today I booked a Penny Brohn session for March. I can’t think of anything else I CAN sort out (except for the stuff I’m supposed to be doing for the swimming comp that starts tomorrow. First day of the comp tomorrow and I am NOT prepared AT ALL!!!)

Hops are fruit too, aren’t they? I’ll have a few servings this evening.

Hi all - first TAX went ok, though it was a bit un-nerving having the chemo nurses keeping beady eyes on me and the lady in the next chair, who were both having our first lot… apparently you can react to it (oh goody) but we both made it through with no problems!!! I am a lovely shade of lobster thanks to all steroids… don’t know about hot flushes, I look more like I’ve had a chemical peel… but sadly I don’t think I’ll have the smoother skin at the end of it!!!

Feeling perfectly ok for now - though I know the TAX truck takes a few days to reverse into us at full speed, so making the most of it at the mo - and eating lots of chocolate before the evil tastebud gremlins turn it into lard…

Got to paint my nails still, best get on with that tonight!!

Good job I do feel ok, as had to take eldest daughter to doc as she has kidney infection that has just suddenly flared up. Poor girl, she’s so stoic usually, and had loads of uti’s and bladder probs as a small child, but she was in so much pain this evening, she was in tears in the waiting room. Doc was running almost an hour late as he had trainee swedish doc with him, so she was taking all history and stuff and he was questioning her on her theories…ugh. In the end I did point out that all dd’s previous episodes were on the computer, and couldn’t they just double check? I was polite about it… but evidently firm enough, as they quickly got on with it. Hefty antibiotics, lots of painkillers and a quick detour to collect gallons of cranberry juice… then arrived home to find OH hadn’t got around to taking son to work, so threw daughter out of car, loaded son in…

Ok, now I’m tired!!!

Hope you all doing ok, keep a bar stool free for me in the JM as fancy at least five pints of Bass tonight…

Sophie xxx

Sophie, after all that I’ll stand you a few.

Cheryl