Ha ha. A girl after my own heart! Will do Jaffa cakes ? Thank you, Kess x
Oh what a nigtmare - sending you a big hug Rowan xx good luck for today, hopefully its a glitch and your Radiotherapy will soon go ahead as planned.
Cathx
Hey up me ducks
so its rads starting a week on monday n a lovely letter to my ‘mum n dad’ from our solicitor telling them to stay away
We getting there dudes ?
Xxx
Chemo 7 (of 8) and Herception 3 are done. I had the wakey uppy first night of the steroids last night, and have woken up with bright red face I get from either the Pacllitaxel or the Piriton. No temperature, I just look and feel like a beacon. I feel like this is the calm before the storm - and am hoping that the further dose reduction and the 30mg of amitryptiline I have now had for a month, will keep the nerve pains at bay.
Sounds like you did the right thing Lowfatlovatt. We only need the right people in our lives right now - doesn’t matter if they should be there for us- if they aren’t then its better not to have them there.
Good luck all on radiotherapy, appointments etc
Jilly
Hoping this one goes better for you jilly. I ll keep everything crossed. You are allowed a wallow Rowan. It’s hard for you when you have dates planned to get through this bleep and it gets changed. Big hug. Hope you are feeling better about things Hayley xxx
Kess do you know what surgery you’re getting yet? I’m meeting my surgeon on Tuesday and I’m booked in for 17th July. I’ve had a really good response to the chemo (well as far as I can feel ?) so I’m still hoping for a lumpectomy though deep down I think it will be a mastectomy. I can’t get my head around a mastectomy just now but if that’s my recommendation, that’s what I will do.
Glad your meeting went well today Alice and I’m so pleased you’re out the other side of chemo. I hope you’re still enjoying your treats.
Hope you get the pony Rowan. If you don’t ask, you don’t get ? and you deserve it after all you’ve been through. I hope you at least got the daisy skirt just in case ponies aren’t forthcoming.
Love to you all
Hazel x
Omg im pregnant xxx
That’s hard for you Kess but if it gives you the best chance, you have to do it. I was thinking about it again last night and I’ll be doing the same if mx is what the surgeon recommends. I will find it really hard and to be honest I just can’t imagine it. Then again, I never imagined me getting through chemo and I’ve done that. It also occurred to me last night that it is likely to be temporary like the hair loss because at some point I’ll have reconstruction. I don’t know if I could have that right away like Wildpurl because of radiotherapy (I’m fuzzy on the details of that).
Hx
Hey up me ducks
Yep defo pregnant, after not believing the first test cuz I did it late at night and doing 2 yesterday morning n 2 this morning theres defo a bun in the oven, how am I supposed to get ellis who will be 14 months old and a newborn around - I dont do double buggies? got appointment to see oncologist on monday to find out what will happen with rads n stuff
Love n hugs
Hayley
Xxx
Kess, im 4/5 weeks so was pregnant when I had my last chemo just didnt know it, all thoughts are goin through my mind, will be asking my oncologist on monday all sorts of questions, I know this is going sound horrible but I dont know if its good news or not (god that sounds awful) im soooo proud of all of us on here xxx
Awwh bless ! That has made me smile this morning. I bet those little ducklings are a sight in your pool Jaffacakes ! hope they manage to get out and back to Mother Duck safe and sound xx
15 days post last Tax for me and still have some side effects that are still clinging on, not going to go on about it though as Im boring myself with it all.
I have my date for the start of Radiotherapy - 1st July and am seeing the Oncologist tomorrow re-Tamoxifen, Im going to ask about going back to work, but to be honest I really dont feel up to it at the moment and have to take my hat off to you girls who have continued to work throughout this ordeal.
We are spending next week at our Caravan in West Wales, so have something to look forward to.
Love to everyone xxxx
Hi everyone. Your surgeon sounds lovely, Alice and it seems he’ll be keeping a close eye on you which is really reassuring.
I had a mastectomy kess and hazel as I had 5 sites and my surgeon told me that’s what would happen within seconds of telling me the lumps that he had 95% thought were not breast cancer were. So I just nodded and had no questions. Post surgery he told me it had been the right thing to do and margins were clear. It’s not as bad as I thought. The op was ok as was recovery and scar is very neat. However I do feel lopsided and hope one day I can have a reconstruction. I just know it had to be done. I hope you get the news you want both of you.
Low fat - pregnant! Wow, congratulations. By gum girl you know how to stick two fingers up at cancer and get on with your life xxx
We have plenty ponies here for you Rowan. You can have 1 or 2. Less to muck out in the winter ? xxx
I had my last chemo yesterday. Stupid but I found it really hard. As soon as the needle is in I just sit and talk to take my mind off it and its fine. I felt every last bit of it going through my veins yesterday and my body kept trying to be sick. Cried my way through it! So so glad it’s the last one hopefully.
Hope everyone else is ok - hoping you had less side effects jilly xxx
Oh for goodness sake, I’m useless. Didn’t see this whole page of posts before I posted! I wondered why it was so quiet. I won’t bore you with another long dirge, except to say. I hope so pleased you are feeling better alice. I am really glad your partners anniversary passed as well as it could sue, sometimes worrying and the build up can be worse than the event. It’s good your friend supported you. So sorry the hear about your day jaffacakes. We are all guilty of saying the wrong things sometimes and I’m sure she knew you meant no harm. Suicide in the family is very difficult to cope with, i do understand ?. I hope she has a speedy recovery. At times like that it feels like one thing after another! Big hug. I hope you managed to sort put your ducklings! So cute imagining hubby building a ramp.
Sending hugs, lowfatlovatt xxx
That’s fantastic news jaffacakes 
I had a lump in other breast and been this morning and they are happy it’s nothing Another appointment this afternoon for neck and thyroid biopsy. Fingers crossed xxx
That’s great news Caz and Jaffacakes. Hope the biopsy is also clear Caz.
It’s lovely to hear you sounding so well Alice. You’ve come a long way from the horrible nausea you’ve suffered and I’m so pleased you’re feeling better.
Thinking of you Hayley. Can’t be easy for you and hope your meeting with the oncologist gave you reassurance.
Sue I’m glad you got through the painful anniversary. It’s a hard time but you’re sounding as well as can be expected. One day at a time.
I met with the surgeon on Tuesday and also had an ultrasound on my lump. I wasn’t worried because I can’t feel anything anymore but unfortunately the tumour is mostly still there. It’s barely shrunk at all, the chemo has just changed its consistency and that’s why I can’t feel it. The radiologist said the chemo response was ‘disappointing’ so I’m back to being terrified that the cells have escaped past my infected lymph nodes or out through the chest wall (I have chest wall invasion). On the plus side, the small reduction is enough for the surgeon to go for a lumpectomy so that’s good and what I was hoping for. I’m praying that the change in consistency will be all dead cancer cells but won’t know until the pathology comes back after surgery. It’s just sh*t sometimes but I will bounce back. Got lots of nice things planned for the next few weeks so that will help. I had my first fast food today for 4 months and it was great! Wasn’t something I are much of before but it tasted great today ?
Love to you all
Hazel x
Hey up me ducks
Im soooooo sorry for moaning, I have 2 choices 1) not start radiotherapy n tamoxifen till ive given birth 2) have a termination n continue treatment, heads in the shed ?
Sooooo proud of you all n love you all
Xxx
Thanks Jaffacakes and Sue. The future is such a scary place just now and its on my mind a lot. I think I might look into mindfulness because I could do with focussing more on the present. Some days I just find it all a bit overwhelming. Thanks for the reassurance about the lumpectomy Jaffacakes. It means a lot.
Hayley what a horrible position to be in. Sending you lots of love and support for whatever you choose to do. It can’t be easy.
Good luck for today Kess. I hope the side effects are kind to you.
Hxx
Hello girls, just want to say that
Im thinking about you all, seems never ending sometimes dosnt it?
Hope you can get your lumpectomy out of the way soon Hazel and fingers crossed for good results for you x x
I found my last Chemo very hard too Caz, strange really, I thought I would be jumping for joy. Hope the S/E are kind to you fingers crossed for you awaited results x
so pleased you had some good results Sue, you have had a terrible time of it lately and deserve some good news x
Thinking of you Hayley, sending you love and a cuddle x x
Hope the Chemo went ok today Kess, hope the S/E are kind to you.
Alice I’m so glad you are feeling much better x x Have a well deserved rest before the Rads
Jaffacakes hope you are doing well (and all those ducklings xxx ) hope that your sister is feeling a little better too.
Cath x
So much still going on for everyone! Hazel I’m really sorry your results weren’t what you needed to hear but the path report may be really positive. I understand your fears for the future as I too over think and look too far ahead. Big hug and everything crossed. Here’s to fast food to keep us sane!
Hope you are coping with side effects kess. And I won’t say ‘only one more’ as I was close to poking people in the eye who said it to me!
Lots of love Hayley. I really feel for you. Can they help you further in your decision? Xxx
That’s great Sue re thickening. One less thing to worry about! I’m glad your portcath has gone Alice. Yay! I never had one of those but can imagine how much better that must feel.
My appointment for thyroid was a waste of time. I was referred to emergency ENT last week at the big hospital as I had waited so long for an appointment. I have had earache, hoarse voice, tinnitus and stiff neck with sore lymph nodes for months. Anyway they did a hearing test (fine) and stuck the camera up my nose and down my throat. They told me to go to this appointment I already had booked this week to get my thyroid biopsied. So I went to the small hospital on Thursday (day after chemo - yuck) They did same tests again, as they can’t access my records from the big hospital, and he told me he doesn’t do thyroids and he ll refer me! I was just glad to get home!
Love to you all xxx