Stop feeling guilty, small rant (BENCHLAND) (Part 1)

Hope all went well for you today JCJ and you have enjoyed your chippie:smileyhappy:

Also great your trousers fit, hurrah.

Half way round?? woo hoo!!

Aaaah FF, fingers crossed for doc visit, backs are terrible when they won’t heal properly, any slight movement can be agonising…

 

YD and baby are coming home tomorrow, yippeeeeeeee! Am so excited, I have touched him but have never held him…tubes, wires etc all gone today, he’s had all the tests, is feeding very well and putting on weight so they have no worries to discharge him, YD’s official discharge was yesterday.

Mum is moving on Mon, she has been allocated the “big” room so am really pleased, it’s very pretty, hopefully Mum will feel the same, fingers crossed she settles well:smileysad:! 

Now all we have to do is clear her house…have 101 things to do over next couple of weeks so today I have done nothing, everything can wait…was on the “guilty” bench for a while but have hopped skipped and jumped off it and am now sitting on the “one day can’t make a difference surely??” bench.

Have also eaten 2 bars of chocolate…xx

Busy, busy times Katy! Don’t overdo it! A new baby in the house - that’ll be an experience! Both exciting and exhausting, I imagine. :slight_smile: A house to clear! That’s an emotional rollercoaster! Hugs.

 

Yesterday’s “not an inspection” went well; our visitors were given strict instructions to be positive and supportive and they were very kind. No-one observed me personally, although I was supporting in class during several “visits”. They were told not to watch me teaching maths because “it isn’t fair” (No, it ISN’T fair that I’m expected to teach maths - even if it is only to a small group! Grrrr!)

It’s over anyway. We survived. Our excellence and hard work have been recognised. HMI will be back in anytime soon. Bring it on. Let’s get it over with! :frowning:

 

Enjoy your half term and reduced work, FF. I hope it gives your back time to recover properly. Don’t you overdo it either. xx

PS. Chippies were scrumptious and I enjoyed them in the park because I went a bit earlier before it got too dark! :smiley:

Breaking news! They’ve had the 20 week scan. I’m going to have a grand daughter! Everything is fine. :slight_smile:

That’s wonderful news hurrah JCJ, think of all the girly things you can do together woo hoo!
Did you get a pic??
So very happy for you xx

Whoo hoo, a grandaughter on the way, brilliant news.  Get those pandas working on pink bamboo wool. Glad all is well.

 

Have been resting after the week at school, feeling fine,  Going into school tomorrow to work and then see how I feel  before the Drs. appt. in the afternoon.  A good test of how my back is.

 

 

 

I hate the colour pink and said to YD, “I suppose I should buy pink wool then?” and she replied, “No, definitely not, she can wear black and grey like her mum’s!” She is currently on the lookout for a tiny grey fleece! :smiley:

 

Hope your back really is better now and work doesn’t aggravate it again, FF.

 

How’s life with a new baby in the house, Katy? I bet you’re getting lots of cuddles - if not much sleep? Has mum moved into her nursing home yet? I hope she likes it and settles in quickly.

 

On the kn*****ed bench tonight. Full on day at school followed by supermarket shop. S****bury’s has a new menu in their cafe. We tried the butter chicken with rice and naan. Delicious!!

 

3 more get ups. Snzzzzzz

Fingers crossed your back is properly on the mend now FF, just be superly careful x

I like pink girlie dresses cardis hats, just the whole bang show, the baby girls things are so much prettier than the baby boy things…

Baby and Mummy are doing very well, but baby is sleepy all day and awake all night so Mummy is having no sleep, our home is a circus, visitors and more visitors all the time, hopefully calm down next week. 

Mum has moved and have spoken to nurses there and they are all saying what a character she is, it’s true haha, hee hee. We are up tomorrow and are taking her personal things up, am excited to see her in the new surroundings, they were saying she is settling in well.

My cousin received a call from the place where she did live asking how soon we could clear Mum’s house, for goodness, really??? One day out of hospital…

Am tired, so much happening all at once but happiness is there too xx

Have managed to have some organisation today, you know what I’m like…
Calls made, windows cleaned, hoovered and general tidying!
Went along to ED s was meant to stop off at supermarket but chose to go home instead haha.
Saw mum yesterday and she appeared settled , chatted with nursing staff who were friendly and kind, so relieved. Emotionally I am a mess haha came home from seeing mum, crying and was crying again this morning, have been keeping everything together for weeks so realistically I was going to go at some point…
I am refusing to sit on the “CSL” bench and have chosen to sit on the “all ok” bench instead xx

Tried to post last night but my tablet died on me and wouldn’t recharge. :frowning: I left it plugged in all night and it seems to be ok now, but I think it’s on its last legs. Will have to ask Santa for a new one perhaps.

 

You have had an incredibly stressful few weeks, Katy, so you needed that release of crying. Don’t be ashamed of needing the CSL bench - we all benefit from it from time to time! Tea, snackerels and hugs for you! 

 

Hope your back is still improving, FF. Take it steady! X

 

One more day to stagger through (and no maths to teach today either! :)) then a week off. Yay!!

 

 

 

Aaaah thank you JCJ, I tried to post earlier but was unable to , so maybe it’s not your tablet ??? am using phone just now.
Enjoy your time off, are you going anywhere?
When is you grandbaby due? Is it March that rings a bell.
Did you leave any dinner in the shed tonight? Am away to search xx

We’re off to Morwich, tomorrow, for a couple of days, to see the girls. Travelodge and train booked.

 

Dinner is slow roasted Hereford beef, roasties, Yorkshire pudding, cauliflower in wholegrain mustard dressing, mange tout, baby sweetcorn, carrots and gravy followed by pineapple sponge, fresh pineapple  and passion fruit and mango frozen yogurt.

 

It’s definitely my tablet dying. Battery charge drops quickly and it’s refusing to recharge unless I turn it completely off. @#£_&*"’ annoying! I have found a possible replacement and added it to my “big River” wish list. Fingers crossed! :smiley:

We’re off to Morwich, tomorrow, for a couple of days, to see the girls. Travelodge and train booked.

 

Dinner is slow roasted Hereford beef, roasties, Yorkshire pudding, cauliflower in wholegrain mustard dressing, mange tout, baby sweetcorn, carrots and gravy followed by pineapple sponge, fresh pineapple  and passion fruit and mango frozen yogurt.

 

It’s definitely my tablet dying. Battery charge drops quickly and it’s refusing to recharge unless I turn it completely off. @#£_&*"’ annoying! I have found a possible replacement and added it to my “big River” wish list. Fingers crossed! :smiley:

 

Arghhhh won’t let me post. And battery on its last 1% grrrrrrr!

Posted twice. It said I had to correct highlighted errors and try again…wrong!

Oh my that was delicious:smileyhappy: so glad I searched the shed…

Have a wonderful time with all your girls:smileyhappy:

 

Can’t believe how cold it is here, think I say this every year…

Been sleeping this afternoon, tiredness caught up, was meant to go along to Mum’s with ED to start sorting stuff but another day isn’t going to matter. Arrived home last night after 6 and it was so dark!! xx

 

 

Thanks for dinner JCJ, delicious as usual.  Hope you enjoy your time with your two and a half girls. Just knit a little bit of a pink stripe into the grey hoodie…

 

So glad that Mum appears to be settled in Katy, no wonder you ended up on the CSL bench after all the stress of the last few weeks.

 

So I saw the Dr. last week got signed off work for a further two weeks, an X-ray requested and a blood test… I had the X-ray today, actually two X-rays one back to front just standing and other one side on. " Just move your hips to the right "  Well if I could do that without pain I wouldn’t need the X-ray!. Results to the GP in a couple of days, did I have an appt?  No, as I’'ve got to wait until 7th Nov for the blood test I’ll wait until both are back for the appt…

 

 

 

 

Just back home. We stopped at a favourite pub for a meal on the way because OH had got cold waiting for me at the car - he’d caught an earlier train back while I was meeting up with an ex-colleague for coffee - and because we CBA to cook! 

 

Lovely sunny day today and Monday, when we spent most of it on trains, but yesterday was vile: wet, windy and cold. We went to a big garden centre place that we went to last time we visited the girls and the weather was c**p (EVERY time??!) Had lunch in the café, explored the festive seasonal merchandise and then visited the huge craft shop where YD helped me choose some lovely, soft, grey baby wool and some green wool. I’ll finish the white hoodie and then make 2 different ones. Pink is definitely off the menu!!

 

They have already started collecting some adorable baby grows (none pink or in the least “frilly”) and have been given loads of stuff by colleagues of D-I-L. Other grandma has bought them a cot and they’ve got a cheap pram/carrycot/car seat/pushchair thing from a colleague of YD’s. I had a bit of a private worry that they’ve got too much to soon, something could still go wrong, but they’re both so excited I kept that firmly to myself! 

 

I’m nervously about to see if our shower is working. Need to wash my hair as I intend to get it trimmed at the hairdresser’s tomorrow, while my car is being serviced & MOTed (fingers crossed on that too!). Can’t bear the thought of them washing it - or the extra cost! - and I’d be embarrassed for them to cut it if it wasn’t freshly washed, but when OH had a shower before we left, on Monday, the trip switch went off along with all the upstairs lights. We switched the shower mains switch off, reset the trip switch and went away. House still here when we got back and all electrics appear to be working but I’ve yet to turn the shower back on… Watch this space!!

 

I hope your bloods and X-Rays don’t give anyone cause for alarm, FF, and that they can sort out your back problem. Take it steady. And throw that guilt about having more time off to the alligators!! (We can fatten them up ready for alliburgers at the annual silent, invisible firework party! :))

 

Have you started the house clearance yet, Katy? I hope it’s not too distressing and that the landlord is not hassling you too much.

 

Right, off to brave the shower - or manage the over bath contortionist act!!

mmmm FF, don’t think I would be able to wait…hope results are here soon and you can get everything sorted, is it your hips that are giving you more pain than your back?? Fingers crossed for you and big hugs.

 

Glad you had a good time with girls and it is nice that they are sooooooo excited:smileyhappy:, we are also same here, no prams or cots at home until baby is born, olden day traditions, methinks. 

 

Managed to sort a few things this week, honestly have no idea where my time is going??? 

Baby GS is doing well 5lbs 3oz now woo hoo, still has jaundice and will have another blood test soon, health visitors and midwives not worried. ED has her consultant appt next week.

Mum has fallen in new place and they have today taken her for xrays, she is saying she’s not in pain, am going up tomorrow and will see how she is then, she now has literally no balance at all, as soon as she tries to get up she falls over. She will not use buzzer to alert anyone and she will try to get up even though she is aware that she will fall over. Most of her personal bits and bobs are up in care home now. Am phoning tomorrow to find out about a clearance, don’t feel too bad as Mum never really liked house anyway. It will be sad to see some pieces of furniture and other things going because of the memories, but have to be realistic:smileyfrustrated: xx

Dropped car off at 8:30 yesterday morning. Walked 1/4 mile up into (small market) town to waste some time while I waited for it. Had a leisurely egg on toast breakfast in a cafe, strolled to hairdresser’s with my kindle, expecting to have to queue for a while (it’s a no appointment place) only to find they’d just opened, I was the first and only customer!! 10 minutes later, I’m back outside!! Of course, if I was in  a hurry,I’d have had to wait aaages? Potter about - luckily it wasn’t actually raining - buying some bits and exploring the charity shops. Another cafe for a tea and Danish. Phone call. MOT failed. Oh no! :frowning: But all minor things: tyre, number plate bulb, brake fluid and windscreen wipers. Phew! Told them to just sort it out and call me when it’s done. More tea. Read kindle (other ereaders…) Cafe starts to fill up with lunchtime customers so I head back to garage to wait. Comfy couch, warm waiting room - offer of a free tea/coffee - no thanks I’m awash!!

At 1:30pm my car was eventually ready and not too hideously expensive either. That’s a relief! If I’d known it would be 5 hours I’d have got the bus home and got OH to take me to collect it, but it’s done now. Hopefully sorted for another year.

 

Mincemeat assembled and marinating. Shoes and boots polished. Dinner cooked. More of GD’s jacket knitted. Swim swum. A productive day, but how on earth can it be Friday already?? Sunny today and OH wants to go out for the day. I just want to slob at home, but hey ho…!

Well, it’s happened. :frowning: OH has come to the decision that he can no longer drive. ? We knew it was inevitable eventually, but we both hoped it wouldn’t be yet. He can’t control his legs well enough. I was, frankly, scared when he was driving on Friday, and it was a relief to take over. He is feeling some relief about the decision, because driving was becoming more and more stressful, but our worlds have just come crashing down. No more Sunday afternoons or Friday evenings when he takes himself off and I get the house to myself and some peace. He can’t walk very far at all, so getting out will be almost impossible unless we purchase a motorised wheelchair or buggy.(He’s always wanted an electric vehicle - though I think a car is more what he had in mind!) He can’t go to the volunteer allotment any more, or drive the other men there (none of them drive). He can’t meet up with his friend at swimming on a Friday night. The pool they use is too far away for me to drive him there and back - unless I swim then too, but it’s 9pm on a Friday - I’m in my PJs by then!! His friend lives in the other direction, so it’s too far for him to fetch him. 

 

He’s going to go insane if he’s trapped at home all the time - and so will I!!

 

I’ve come to the conclusion that I’ll have to make this my last year at work - possibly even reducing my hours so that I can be home in the afternoons. I’m going to have to have a  chat with my HT tomorow and see if we can come up with a plan.

 

We’ve both shed a few years this weekend. At least he’s talking, not sulking - or blaming me this time! I hope he continues to feel that relief and the enormity of the situation doesn’t hit home! He’s only just renewed his car insurance and his car is booked for its MOT next week. I’ll have to try and take it after work, because we can’t sell it without - if that’s what we decide to do.

 

So much to sort out, so many decisions to make. PD is so cruel. :frowning: