Go RevCat with the ladle! I may be in dire need of it in a minute!
Bunjy jumping between F****** Furious bench and my OH’s a B*******. Driving back - yet again - from UHCW, Coventry (although he has at least had two days off from it, when I got a friend to take me!) he was whingeing about hating having to make the journey. Griping about motorways and city driving. Obviously the guilt was piling up inside me - along with the catatonic weariness!
Then the conversation turned to a couple I saw in the waiting room at Rads, who were on the verge of a domestic. I said it was perhaps the first time in her life she felt she wasn’t in control. OH had the nerve to say that perhaps her cancer WAS her fault! He then got on his soap box about exercise - he is a stuck record when it comes to exercise and health! As usual he’s tactlessly regurgitating c**p he’s read inthe press as if it’s undisputable fact, completely oblivious to the effect that’s having on me!! As if I don’t already feel everything is my fault at the moment.
REALLY had to bite tongue to avoid pointing out that HIS broken leg in Febraurry could have been avoided if he’d refreained from strimming the churchyard (voluntarily!) in icy conditions!!
Glad I didn’t say any such thing, as that was a cruel thought, and he was just being typically thoughtless and tactless. He was quite surprised when I pointed out (through angry tears) that he had as good as accused me of causing my own cancer and all the subsequent hastle it has entailed! Grrr
Sorry, ladies. No-one else to vent that at. Can’t burden the ‘kids’!
Feel better now. But I’ll be back on the FF bench if I have to battle with Word Verification 15 times like last time!
Weekend off now - then only 2 more to go! Tempted to drive myself and do battle with the parking - may be less stressful??
well, I tried saving the thread to the browser’s favourites, but all that happens is that I go back to the same page, not the latest version of the thread! Firmly glued to the grumpy bench!
On the other hand, the sun has been shining today (Yippee!) and I’ve been OFF, and out and about with my lovely daughter in law - been to Pilates together, than for lunch + cream tea… can’t be bad…
GIJane: I saved it to my browser and when I open it , I just click on ‘last post’ at the top to get quickly to the end of the thread.
Or, I sometimes find it by clicking on ‘Undergoing treatment for breat cancer’ on the left hand menus - but they are getting ridiculously long with, bizzarrely, the archive stuff in the way at the top now! Then you can see when the last post was (gets bugle out?? ) and click on last page to load the last page, but then you have to scroll down or use the ‘last post’ button.
Hope that helps at all? Or am I rambling? Radio Therapy Kn*****ed!
I had to go via google cache to find this thread again!!!
Just to say I’ve hooked up Katy’s transmat beam to Facebook and a totally ‘secret group’ for frustrated BCC ladies. If you know my real name you can friend me on FB, if you don’t you can message me on here and tell me your FB ID (just copy what appears in the left hand box of your browser when you’re logged in on your page) and I can friend you. Then I can add you. Hopefully this place will be back to normal service soon!
Apologies to anyone who gets three million notifications of this comment!
Thanks JCJ - that works now (but didn’t on Friday!) However, at least it works NOW… so I can get off the grumpy bench and wander over to the WoeIsMe bench, cause my lymphodema’s getting wuss & wuss despite me doing ALL the right things (massage/exercice) every day… Shan’t sit there long though, cause it’s not nice over there… I shall have to go looking for the “thinkpositive” bench and spend a few mins there too. As I type my hand is swelling… ******r
sssssssssssssh, have just joined the secret group! well excited!! Will beam backwards and forwards hope I don’t get lost!
Freezing cold here and pouring with rain, central heating on and beginning to feel cosy!
Jane hope things calm down real soon xx
Still very confuzzled with the new site, and had to ask someone on FB to post a link so I could find my way back to Benchland.
I suspect the saddoes like meself (who just can’t wean themselves off this site) will fade into the background while new forum members, sadly far too many, will take it on. The way it should be, perhaps, but the transition’s been a bit traumatic.
Noooooo! Don’t all leave me and defect to FB! I closed my FB account as I got fed up with it not being as private as it claimed to be - (not good when you work in a primary school!)
Benchland (and other threads) has been my lifeline these last 3 months. Would’ve been much harder to get through this without you all.
JCJ, we will never leave you!!! Get off that “lonely” bench, right now!
Alligator alert, run for the high benches, RevCat has forgotten to shut them down, must be getting too excited by the prospect of her upcoming holiday! xx
I was having abandonment issues! Not helped by OH shouting upstairs while I was getting dressed: “I’m going to London. See you Thursday!” And leaving.
Now I know his brother’s ill and he’s been waiting to go and see him … BUT the last I heard he said he couldn’t go before Wed because of taking me to the hospital. No “Sorry” or “Will you be alright?” Just off he went! So it was a huge shock to have to drive myself - and I was already a bit emotional because it is the last one and I spent half the night re-playing, both when awake and in dreams, all that’s happened to me over the last 5 months. Re-living all those consulting rooms and conversations.
Weird experience having the last Rad. So tired (and P***ed off with OH!/stressed at driving through torrential hail storms, hospital traffic and parking). It seems strange I won’t see all those lovely radiologists again. I told them “In the nicest possible way, I hope I don’t see you again!” They were already munching on the chocs I took them as I left.
JCJ I also was feeling a little down in the dumps today, so have just managed to eat, biggest slice ever of chocolate marble cake with malteeser type things on top!! So sickly but delicious, tea will have to now be postponed until much later, so come and join me on the “tasty things to eat” bench where we can keep munching and each other amused!!
Last rads hip hip hurrah, you will have perfect peace tomorrow xx
Hey ladies, I’m here, bearing fresh home-baked cupcakes (why did I agree to bake for a church do the day before I go on my hols? mad! mad! mad! Do bloke ministers bake cakes? Noooo of course not)… blueberry cheesecake, carrot cake and 99 flake cakes… help yourselves they are scrummy, even if I say so who shouldn’t. A few for the frustrated mods and techies too.
The annexe over at FB is not so very big, but it has proved a haven for frustrated ladies! I am whizzing back and forth in Katy’s transmat beam.
OK, all alligator traps re-baited with boot-polish flavoured bait… no idea why that flavour but it soiunded adequateky revolting.
The spoons are topped up, the hankies are ironed, the boingy stuff is boingy…
Now, don’t tell anyone but it is SUNNY is Glasogw - probably because I am stuck indoors making cakes.
I am off to Hungary on Thursday - so the tehcies will breath a sigh of releif not to be getting my comments! When I return all will be calm and serene with flowers round the door of the shed and everyone chilled… well i can dream!
Think I will be boinging between the Fat ****ards and Cant be ***ed benches. Just got to hope I do not lose my grip and fall into the lake or sandpit. Not sure if having a meat cleaver near and handy is good for me at the moment, I may be tempted to use it - aaaarrrrhh *********
The Search featues seems to be “in progress”, so don’t any of you go wandering too far, or we’ll NEVER find you!!! Not heard that the lake of guilt was transmatted… hope it was… and I hope that you have a FANTASTIC time in Hugary RevCat! I’m off to Northumberland next week, and I’m not sure how to find Benchland on my phone, oh yes… I’ll have to create bookmarks on the phone!
Anyway, I’m on the “doIhavetowakeup” bench…
have a good day all…love Jane
Can’t eat any more chocolate…shouldn’t have ate RevCat’s offerings, obviously having a piggy day yesterday.
WOW what was that…a flying meat cleaver??? Watch out girls!
I’m on the “have lots to do today and don’t want to do any of it” it’s pretty near the “CBA” bench.
Enjoy your holidays!!! xx
On the guilty bench having just spent far too long in the shower enjoying using lovely dove soap instead of the stuff that smellls like wet sheep. Will probably regret the damaged that may have inflicted on my just radiated skin but WTH?
Shove over Katyc - I need to join you on the lots to do bench - with half a cheek on the CBA one! Really should go and make docs appointment for Zoladex injection. (Can’t use rads as an excuse any more :() No point in trying to get through on the phone as it will only make mne need to fester on the FF bench for the rest of the afternoon! Also need to show the recetionist THEIR letter ASKING me to make the appointment to make sure they don’t make difficulties - (ie foisting me off on duty doctor - or asking me to ring in the morning!! grrrr)
They don’t cut GP surgery staff out of the same mould as oncology/radiotherapy ones do they??
Have a brill time in Hungary RevCat - we’ll try to keep the place tidy in your absence!
Right! I Will just finish this cup of coffee and slice of cake…
But I’ll be back on the FF bench if I have to battle with Word Verification 15 times like last time!
Don’t all leave me and defect to FB! I closed my FB account as I got fed up with it not being as private as it claimed to be - (not good when you work in a primary school!)